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I want what I can't have Part 9 (Alex Mattson)

Person: Alex Mattson 

Warnings: Angst...

Image: After Aleksi and you went outside to drive to the studio you hope anything gets better but it want.

Thank you guys for all that support but this story will ending soon so pleas don't be sad .

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 Aleksi opened the studio door and went inside. I followed him. When we came in we saw Tommi sitting on the drums, Joonas and Olli had their guitars in their hands and Joel and Niko were sitting on the couch. I looked at the couch, Nikos face was not even the beginning white as blue as Aleksis.

 He just hit him yesterday, Aleksi allowed himself, but he's just not the type who beat up one of his best friends. Niko glanced at me and Aleksi for a moment. His hand formed a fist and his eyes frowned, but a little later he looked again at the piece of paper in front of him. 

"Hey guys, let's get started right away," said Joonas as he walked over to me and smiled at me so as not to cause another fight. I nodded and grabbed my guitar. Aleksi went to his DJ desk and Niko just glared at him as he passed. 

When the music played I briefly forgot everything about me and just concentrated on now. One reason I love rock so much was that I could let out all my emotions. Most of all I wanted to scream just scream out loud. 

Why did Niko come. I thought after last night he was lying around drunk with some girl but he was here. I kept glancing at him and I knew how I felt for him, but my feelings for him had dwindled in the last few days.

 Whenever I saw Aleksi my heart jumped and that made me angry. I don't want to feel that way for him. "That was good folks," said Joel when the song ended. "I'll get something to drink" yelled Joonas a little too loud. 

Tommi and Olli went into the next room and now there were only Aleksi, Joel, Niko and I standing there. Joel knew how shitty the situation was, he tried to lift the mood with a few bad jokes. But at some point it became too much for Niko and he went outside.

I knew I had to talk to Niko so I left Aleksi and Joel alone and ran after Niko. "Niko wait" I shouted and Niko turned around immediately. "What?" He said aloud and came closer. "Niko, I'm sorry, me and Aleksi we never fucked okay. 

I only kissed him once and that was wrong but I was confused." I went even closer to Niko. "You were confused. That's all you say about it. You made out with one of my best friends. And Aleksi said yesterday that you fucked." I wanted to take Nikos hand but he quickly pulled it away. "Niko, I know that you are angry and I absolutely understand it, but please listen to me". Niko looked up at me from the floor.

 "Well then, explain to me why you fuck one of my best friends and act so in love when we're together Y / N". A tear flowed down his cheek when he said this. "Niko me and Aleksi have never fucked. I found out that Aleksi sees me as more than just a good friend and since I know that I see him differently too.

 I love you Niko but now I also have these feelings for Aleksi and me don't know what feelings these are. But I didn't fuck him, I didn't cheat on you Niko "I said backwards and then looked expectantly at Niko. 

"I know that I'm not always perfect Y / N. I know that I'm difficult, I also know that I'm not as sweet and innocent as Aleksi, but I thought there is more between us. Y / N you are damn everything for me. You turn my head over and over again every day. You're the woman I love so damn that it's already a criminal. " I looked at Niko sadly.

 His words completely destroyed me. "Niko, I'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you both. I always wanted to do the right thing," I said quietly while I started to cry. Niko came closer to me and hugged me. "Y / N you have to decide okay. Me or him. And I know you saw me with this girl yesterday in the club, she means nothing to me, I don't even know her name. I was angry and hurt." 

I cried while my face lay on Nikos chest, he was still hugging me. "If I choose to lose one of you," I said as I looked up at Niko and broke away from our hug. "You have to decide otherwise you will lose both of us". I took a step away from Niko but he came to me and took my face in his hands. "I will always love you no matter if you choose," he said while kissing me. I looked at him and he wiped a tear off his face and went inside.

I know that Niko was right, I have to choose.

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Guys I'm freaking out Niko reposted my story today ahhhh.

I think this story gets 1 or 2 parts more and than its finished.

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