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Chapter 18

Sawyer

That was interesting. My brain still hasn't processed what just happened less than 5 minutes ago. Once second Harry and I are yelling at one another then the next I'm riding his fucking thigh. I mean I enjoyed it to say the least but what the fuck does all of this mean? After the uh event I guess you could call it Harry just hugged me. I mean he hugged me hugged me. He made sure I was okay and was really attentive to how I felt which really meant a lot. You don't meet many guys like that these days. We stayed hugging one another for what seemed like hours and I loved every minute of it. He would run his hands through my hair and I would do the same.It was calming having him there.

I haven't been that content in a while.

I wish we could stay like this but I know that he won't want me anymore. I'm probably just a game for him. Now that the chase is over he won't need me. He'll throw me away like a piece of trash. I'm used to it. That's how my ex boyfriend made me feel. Disposable.

Eventually Harry pulled me off his lap and moved me back to my seat. But it was too far away. I know it won't last but I need to be next to him. I need to be close to him. It's crazy how I hated him an hour ago but now I don't want to be apart from him. As we drive away I rest my head on his shoulder and close my eyes. Just as I close them, I feel Harry's arm rest over my shoulder. You see he does things like this and then I forget all his asshole remarks and demeaning comments.

The whole drive home we don't say a word to one another. I think we both know what will happen tomorrow. Everything will go back to normal. He'll go to Medicine and I'll sit at home with my cup of coffee and a good book. It'll be like nothing happened. God I wish it wouldn't be that way.

Forgetting all my worries, I fall asleep on Harry's shoulder. I swear it was the best sleep I have gotten in a while. For once I wasn't anxious. For once my mind was empty.

Suddenly I am jolted awake by Harry's voice. "Love, we are back at your flat. As much as I want to stay like this, it's pretty late."

I hum in response and slowly lift my head off his shoulder. I want to stay here too Harry as much as i don't want to admit it.

"Come on Sawyer. I'll walk you up."

Against my will I grab my bag and reach for the car door handle. As I make my way out of the car Harry comes over to my side and wraps his arm around my waist. His gesture shouldn't make me giddy but it does. Maybe things won't go the way I fear they will. Holding me up, Harry and I walk up to my apartment. Before I go to open the door Harry grabs my hand and pulls me back to him. Cupping my face with both hands, he kisses me passionately. It wasn't like the heated kisses before in the car, this was different.

It was almost like he was saying goodbye.

Pulling away he touches his forehead to mine and stares into my eyes. Those green eyes will be the death of me I swear.

"I had to kiss you one more time before I leave you. I can't get enough of you Sawyer. I just can't."

Immediately I blush and bring my hands up to my face. Harry notices and pushes my hands away.

"I hate when you do that. You don't need to hide yourself from me love. Now one more thing before you go inside. I would take that off and put that back in your bag."

Thank god he said something because I would have just embarrassed myself to the max if I walked inside with that thing on.

"Thank you Harry, that could have been very bad. I-uh really enjoyed tonight."

Harry smirks and plants a kiss on the top of my head. "I really did too. Um why don't you come by Medicine tomorrow around 2 I'm off then? We can talk if you want."