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Chapter 10

Sawyer 

After a long night of dancing and singing you would think I would be worn out and ready to sleep. For some god awful reason I'm wired and ready to still party.

As I lay in bed staring at my ceiling I can't help but get distracted by my thoughts.

Tonight opened my eyes to a thought I have been too scared to say out loud let alone even admit to myself.

I don't like Mitch that way.

Yes, I think he is extremely attractive and we have an amazing bond, but I can't see myself dating him. It sucks to be honest. I really let myself believe that this could work out. I just hope he will still be friends with me because he truly is an amazing guy.

Tonight tested me. How does my idiotic brain choose to focus on the narcissistic lead singer instead of the sweet and caring guitarist who I was there for? I'm ashamed that I could only focus on Harry and felt the way I did when I was with him.

He may be hot as fuck but it's no excuse.

All I know is I'm dreading my date tomorrow with Mitch. I don't want to ruin the friendship we already have with my stupid life choices.

I hope to god he understands.

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Mitch is here and I refuse to leave the apartment.

"Sawyer Nicks get your ass outside. Mitch doesn't deserve this treatment. Be a big girl and do what you need to do."

Momma bear mode was activated the minute I told Alyssa everything. At first she yelled at me for wanting to "dump" Mitch but I think I got it through her thick skull that I still want to be friends with him.

Momma bear is still a little upset that I like Harry a little bit.

Let me also comment that liking is different than a crush okay. I just think he is attractive, that's all.

"Ugh okay fine. I got myself into this mess. I'll get myself out of it."

"Atta girl. Call Niall or I if you need anything."

Walking out the door I see Mitch and an instant wave of panic comes over me. I need to calm down and figure out how I should approach this situation.

After getting into the car thankfully Mitch is his usual talkative self. I try to act as normal as possible and engage in our conversation.

Soon after we arrive at a small diner and take our seats in a booth. I guess the best time is the present.

Just as I'm about to pour out what has been going on in my head Mitch speaks before I even get a chance.

"Um so there is sort of something I want to talk to you about."

Ah shit does he know. Was I acting weird?

"O- okay."

"So yesterday at the concert you know how I had the 'family emergency?' Well it wasn't actually that. Um, how do I say this. Sage basically came up to me and confessed her feelings for me after the show. In any other case I wouldn't be phased but I sort of have always had a thing for her. I don't want you to think that I am some douchebag but it was just a lot for me to process so I had to leave and clear my head."

Shocked and in disbelief I stay frozen.

"Please say something I feel absolutely horrible about it and I had to tell you."

After processing everything I finally gather my thoughts and respond.

"Mitch I don't think you'll believe me but I'm okay. Last night after the show I came to the conclusion that we are better as friends. I absolutely adore you and really want to be friends with you and hang out. I would say we are platonic soulmates."

I really hope he understands what I'm trying to say. Sometimes my way with words is hard to understand.

"Uh wow. It's like you took the words out of my mouth. I was so worried you would hate me."

"Trust me I could never hate you. I thought you would hate me because I feel like it's out of the blue but I'm happy we both feel the same way. So we can still be friends and hang out all the time?"

"Of course Sawyer. I would love that."

For once I'm on God's good side. I thought this would go in a completely different direction.

Being the noisy person I am, I had to ask Mitch some questions about Sage.

"If you don't mind me asking, how long have you liked her because I could really see you guys being a couple. It makes sense."

"Well really since we started the band about three years ago. I kinda just shrugged it off but I guess she felt the same way the whole entire time. Are you sure this isn't weird to talk about?"

"Mitch, trust me if I wasn't comfortable I wouldn't have asked. We are friends and I'm here for you now."

"Touché Sawyer. Now on to you. Anyone else you have your eyes on?"

Oh god. This could turn out to be an interesting conversation.

"So uh funny story actually. I may or may not kind of think Harry is hot."

I swear I just made a joke because Mitch practically spit out his water and started laughing obnoxiously loud. I am now embarrassed for even telling him.

"What's so funny Mitchell? Care to share with the class huh?"

"Sawyer here is the thing about Harry. He is the biggest fuck boy on he planet. He is also super closed off and refuses to really be anything to anyone. I'm just surprised you even like him. He can kinda be a dick sometimes. And by sometimes I mean all the time. Don't get me wrong I love him like a brother but I'm just shocked."

Of course this is the guy I'm attracted to. Just my fuckin luck.

"Mitch I don't know what it is but there is something to him that intrigues me. I know I sound stupid but I don't know. Like he was a dick to me before but then he let me drive his car home which really meant a lot to me."

"Wait hold the fuck up. He let you drive his car? I'm not even allowed to drive it."

"I- I mean I told him it was my dream car which is true and he just handed me the keys."

Mitch chuckles and scratches his head.

"I definitely did not see this coming but who knows."

"Didn't see what coming Mitchell?"

"Nothing nothing , just thinking to myself. How about this, tomorrow after I get off around 6 we go thrifting? Meet me at Medicine and we can talk more while we thrift."

"Okay I guess so. I just can't be back too late because I have class on Monday."

"Fine by me but just make sure to be there right at 6 okay?"

"Okay I promise. Now can we please order? I'm starving."

"Alright, Alright, someone in hangry."

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The rest of the night there was 0 awkwardness between Mitch and I. It was like we had been friends the whole time and nothing more. I think this may be one of the best things that came out of moving here so far.

If only all my relationships were this easy.