It's Not All Roses (txt ot5)

Part 21: dark secrets

⚠️ warning!! This chapter is really hard hitting, contains bodily harm, abuse, sexual abuse and lots of tears :(

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"O-Okay" Kai stuttered out

He wasn't sure if he was brave enough to let such a deep, dark and traumatic time in his life surface again.

He didn't want to be reminded of the past.

But his friends needed to know. He wanted them to know.

"W-when I was a-around 13 my dad used to pick on me a lot. He used to ask about why I d-didn't have a girlfriend o-or why I hadn't dated anyone yet. A-and then he used to call me the f-slur because I h-hadn't dated he a-assumed I was g-gay" Kai's tears non stopped streaming down his face as he told only the start of a horrid childhood.

"After around a y-year or so it started g-getting worse. He w-would hit me and since we were a religious f-family he wouldn't accept I-if I was gay, once time he...he tried to drown me in pool. S-some weird thing he learnt from our local priest." Kai halted taking deep breaths in as his trauma resurfaced.

He hadn't even gotten to the worse part yet.

"The punches e-eventually turned to belt slashes" Kai hiccuped as he lifted up his shirt to show an old scar on his side.

"O-once I...I..."

"It's okay Kai you don't have to go on if you can't j-just take a deep breath" taehyun rubbed soothing circles on the boys knee.

"N-no I want t-to tell you guys" Kai took a deep breath and continued

"Once I was 15 I told him I was asexual a-and h-he.... he would bring woman round a-and he would force me t-to do things" Kai balled his eyes out his sobbing was unstoppable at this point. He didn't think telling the story would be as hard as living the moment but somehow it was just as bad.

"Oh god Kai I'm so sorry" soobin and the rest of the boys were all crying by now.

If seeing the sight of Kai crying wasn't bad enough hearing such disgusting things made it worse.

"I r-refused to do it a-after a while s-so he shattered a piece of glass and he slit my wrists with it. He told me I was better off d-dead. Once he left the room I-I almost just sat t-there and cried until I eventually bled to death. But I didn't. I got myself up off the floor and I cleaned myself up." Kai wiped away his fallen tears as more gathered in the same spot.

"When he eventually passed away last year it all stopped. But m-my mum never once stopped him for hurting me. She never once even t-tried to talk to him out of it. She j-just watched" Kai's face turned to anger. "The fucking b-bitch told me he'd be proud of me. She fucking sat there for years as he tortured me. And I fucking hate her"

"I hate her" Kai choked a sob and he let his tears and sadness take over again.

"Kai I'm so sorry this happened to you. We're going to protect you forever and nothing will ever hurt you ever again you hear me" taehyun hugged the boy tightly.

All 4 hugged Kai tightly until he stopped sobbing.

"If I ever get my hands on that bitch so help me-

"Yeonjun you're not helping" soobin butted in.

"It's okay. T-thanks guys" Kai gave a sad but genuine smile.

"No Thankyou for telling us. You're so brave. My brave baby" taehyun kissed his forehead.

After a long hug and a slight moment of silence...

"Jenga anyone?" Beomgyu smiled.

"Definitely" Kai chuckled.

The roommates played games and giggled all night long hoping to cheer Kai up and take his mind off it.

Lots of cuddles were given out and of course taehyun stole some cheeky kisses every once in a while.

When night fall came the 4 all slept cuddling in yeonjuns bed together.

Although slightly uncomfortable for some, Kai seemed to love the comfort and that's all that mattered.

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Hi guys!

This chapter is really hard hitting I'm sorry if I upset any of you with the content hopefully the warning prepared you.

I haven't been here for a while sorry for the wait.

How have you all been? How are you now? What's been going on?

I'll try to add some fluff next chapter to lift our spirits from this depression session

Until next time ❤️x