i couldn't get out of bed today.
i wouldn't get out of bed today.i wasn't ready for another day of this living in this cycle of dread. it had been a week
all outcomes looked bleak and full of heartache
the what if's kept me awake, i wished i could sleep simply to know some peace
in your absence you left a tidal wave in my mind, it was cashing through every part of me
part of me wishes the waves miles high will travel on forever through my mind and destroy every last memory of you
the rest of me clutched on to very glance, every touch. if i thought hard enough sometimes i could hear your heartbeat, as if my head was laid against your chest
i knew one day the wave will crash down, and i will finally leave this purgatory
my thoughts circled around endlessly, i wanted a distraction but everything else that had once occupied my brain had been erased
i couldn't escape you in my dreams either
i watched you walk away silently each time i closed my eyes, each time you had the same expressionless look on your face
not one of sorrow or destain
i had always been able to read you're facial expression, either positive or negative i could sense what you truly felt
i questioned if i had been wrong, maybe i could never read you, maybe i was simply seeing what you wanted me too
i felt a weight build on my chest, i had no one to offload this emotional burden onto
i laid in bed all day today, weighed down by your mystery
YOU ARE READING
Robin
Short Storyrobin, you had convinced me there was beauty in this world if you knew where to look. shown me how to find joy when there was nothing to be happy about. made me believe i don't have to live for anything other than myself and that that's enough. but...