Thoughts

Fallen Down

I stay awake waiting for something but what is something?Still hearing the melody it rings in my head.
The same thing over like on repeat.The sound I hear like at a circus from way back in the 1800 or like some creepy house.Maybe it's just the fact I'm tired
but...It comes back no matter how many times I tried
To turn it off it comes back more and more.Voices fill my head Is this real? Am I just dreaming?
I would wake up not knowing anything anymore forgetting everything
The voices are making me forget.
It seems that my memory was damaged by something.
This is why I have my books to write everything down
Don't forget who you are!
Should I stop comparing myself to him?
There it is the figure in the corner of my eye.
What does it want this time?
That's where I keep going and must stop!
Question?....Question!
It won't leave me alone no matter how hard I try.I'm letting my emotions get the better of me.My head ringing with noise.It's just my imagination, it's not real...or is it?
What does it want? Revenge ,to play, or just to go home?
Home that's where my answers lay.Maybe then I'll figure out who I am.But the question stays where is home. Ever since I lost the book I don't recall anything they stole.Who's they?Someone lost it.Me wondering in a field of my own thoughts and ideas misplaced it leaving the pages to be distorted.Losing myself I had to find out all over again.But forget basic things as well.
Like "Am I a boy or a girl? Do I like peanuts or almonds?" Things like this are basic and easy to remember.Some memory still lies what I'm afraid of...Words they don't seem scary to my eyes yes everything I look at makes my head hurt.Confusing the most simplest letters like q or p maybe just forgetting how to sound out a word.Or maybe of losing everything thing I love.. friends lost a couple sure.Pretty painful of how I lost them.Only used me just for money.
Glass.
.All I remember is screaming and white sound feeling dizzy.Then crying two tall figures in the background one near the door the other walking in a room.
All of these are just thoughts?
Am I going crazy?
Do I need help...
But he can understand.
Not real but...We have so much in common.
Memory lost at points,Pain of losing,Fear of random things,and hearing voices.
Ranboo?

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Thanks for reading my thoughts
Yes I do have episodes like this sorry this isn't like
A shipping dnf but I thought I change it up a bit with this