LISA'S POV
I walk into my mom's hospital room and she looks over at me.
She gives me a small smile and pats the bed for me to come over and despite everything we have been through I can't help but run over to her side and sit down on the bed next to her
She immediately embraces me in a tight hug
I know this isn't like us to do, we haven't hugged in ages but for some reason, it felt like the right thing to do
I could have lost my mom, she has never been to the hospital for a withdrawal before I never let her get this far, but I wasn't here for her this time
I left her all alone, just like dad did to us all those years ago. The thought of becoming like my dad clouds my mind and I can't help but start crying
"I'm sorry" I sob into my mom's shoulder
"I'm so sorry I wasn't there"
"It's not your fault love" my mom whispers while rubbing my back. It's been a long time since my mom has shown me any warmth like this and it breaks me down even more
I have been longing to have my mom back for such a long time
My mom pulls me away so that we are facing each other
"Lisa, this is my fault, I've been such a horrible person to you. I let my insecurities and depression get the best of me, I failed as a mother, I know. And I'm so unbelievably sorry for everything"
That's it, those are the words I have been waiting for. Those words finally broke every barrier I have ever had before
Tears start streaming down my face and my mom holds my hands as we let the emotions overtake us
"I'm truly sorry Lisa, I hope one day you can forgive me and I know I don't deserve it, but I'm going to try my hardest to make it up to you. Getting your forgiveness is the only thing in life that I want now; it's worth it, even if it takes 50 years to get. I love you Lisa and I'm sorry"
I immediately pull my mom in for a hug; every horrible thing feels like it has washed away
It feels like there is a clean slate between us now, although I'm not sure I can exactly forgive her yet
That will take some time for me
"I love you to mom, but be patient with me on forgiveness" I declare
"That's okay love. Take as long as you need, I'm not going anywhere this time. I'm going to be here for you" she replied
I break away from the hug so that I can suggest
"Before you can be there for me, you need to get better mom. You need help, you need to go to rehab"
My mom sighs before saying "I know Lisa. That's why I asked the nurse to give me more information on rehab centers. I will give it a try"
I can't help but smile, she is willing to try to get better
This is a first and I feel so unbelievably happy that she understands now
"There's also something else that you need to know, it's important" my mom added
"Is it about the money that you tried to tell me earlier?" I asked
"Yes, you see all those years ago, I knew your dad would leave. I could tell he was thinking about it, I knew that I was getting worse and that he couldn't take it anymore. I knew he was saving up money to leave" she begins to explain
"It's okay mom, we don't need to talk about him" I suggest seeing how hard talking about dad is for her
"I need to you need to hear me out," she said so I let her continue
"I knew where your dad was hiding the money, so now and then I would take some of it and hide it. It went on for a while until he finally left and the moment he was gone I put that money in the bank in a new account under your name. It's not much, but it should help you find a place and pay for some of your college tuition"
I'm too shocked to say anything and just stare at my mom "I know there were times where we could have used that money, but I couldn't touch. I just couldn't that money was yours when you got older. I didn't want to waste it, so I never told you about it"
I don't know what else to tell her other than thank you
All this time I thought she was a monster who never loved me, but I was wrong.
She always loved me, but her depression and alcoholism always got in the way. She was sick, but she still loved me
I hug my mom for the third time; I don't know why the two of us are all touchy all of a sudden
Maybe it's because we have been craving this mother's day bonding for such a long time
I'm just happy that we finally came to an understanding conversation. We can both move on now, we can both be better
Unfortunately, my mom has to stay in the hospital for another day, but Jennie gets to leave today
So, after my long talk with my mom, I walk back to Jennie's room to check her up. She's awake now and her face lights up the minute I enter the room
I walk over to her and sit next to her in bed. I put my arm around her and she snuggles closer to me
"How did it go with your mom?" She asked
"Surprisingly well, I think we are on much better terms now" I replied
"That's good. I'm so happy for you two" she replied while wrapping her hands around my waist
"Yeah," I said as I shift in bed to grab her chin to pull her in for a kiss
"I love you"
"I love you too" she replied giving me another kiss
We lay each other's arms for a while until Jennie's parents come to check her up and take us home
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My Chemistry Tutor
Fanfiction(story adaptation) The school knows Lalisa Manoban as the badass who always speaks her mind, but the truth is that she is barely holding on. She is forced to work long hours to support herself and her depressed mother and just wants to be reassure...
