LISA'S POV
When my shift is over I head home to find my mom and her shitty boyfriend passed out in the apartment
I tiptoe around them and head back into my room. I take a shower and change into my pajamas
I contemplate studying, but after flipping through pages in my textbook, I decided not to
I'm not in the mood to feel like an idiot right now since I wouldn't understand anything
I walk into the living room and find my mom groggily getting up. She looked at me and looked away as she tries to get up
That's my mom, it seems like she is looking at you, but she's looking through you, not at you
I walk over to help her up. She reeks of alcohol and cigarette smoke and walks over to the kitchen to grab another beer
"Mom it's late just go to sleep please" I beg
"Don't tell me what to do, I'm your mother I tell you what to do" she said slurring each word
"Mom you know that you can't drink when you are on antidepressant medication. It's dangerous, you could get sick" I explain
"So what if I die? at least I'll be happy drinking my beer" she replied
"Mom please give me the bottle" I beg as I reach for it
"No!" She yelled pushing me away
"Stop you're good for nothing daughter, you're pathetic," she said
"Mom..." I whispered
"Don't mom me you bitch. Get out of my sight, let me drink in peace" she said walking back into the living room
My chest feels heavy and I can feel a lump in my throat as I try not to cry
I can't let her see what she does to me
I walk back to my room with my head held high and the second I enter my room, I lock the door and slump down into a ball to cry
Why is she always like this? Why does she always treat me like I'm nothing?
Can't she realize that she shouldn't be treating her only daughter like this?
I always do everything for her. She hardly gets any money from her job and she wastes it all on drinking
I work long hours to be able to pay rent and buy food for her and her shitty boyfriend
Her boyfriend doesn't pay for anything
I always clean around the house and make her food, I'm the one who is always looking out for her, but no one ever does the same for me
No one ever realizes that my life is a shit show
No one has ever tried to help me before
When my dad left when I was just 10 years old
Who does that? Who just leaves their child behind?
My dad betrayed me. I thought he was such a good person, I thought he was caring and loving, but I was wrong
He left me and my mom. He left us
He told me it was because he couldn't be near my mom and her depression, but he left me with her
He packed his bag and left. I've never seen him since
And I've been the one to look after and take care of my mom. After he left, her depression got worse
She's tried to kill herself a couple of times in the past. It starts with pills and went to cutting herself
Do you know how hard it was as I child to take care of her?
I love her so much, but sometimes I wish I could leave, but then I start feeling so guilty thinking about that
If my mom doesn't have me, then she will have no one
My grandparents are dead and my aunt and uncle want nothing to do with their sister
We are all along and I don't know how much more we can take
What's going to happen when I graduate high school? Am I going to be able to go to college? Or do I have to start working more?
I can't leave my mom, I just can't. I can't go to another state for college, I can't even go somewhere very far for a couple of hours, because I'm so worried about my mom
Is this what my life will be like forever? Is life always going to be this horrible?
I finally crawl over to my bed and lay down, I try to fall asleep as the tears keep coming out
Then suddenly I hear a notification on my phone, I grab it and notice a text message from Jennie
Hey Lisayah, I know it's late, but I just wanted to ask if you want to study a little bit on Saturday. I know you work late, but you can come over afterward and we can study for like an hour or two. So, yeah just text me back when you can and I get it if you don't want to do it
The text brings a smile to my face and I text back
That sounds like a good idea. See you then Jennie
That's awesome
I put my phone on my nightstand and I am about to go to sleep when I get another text. I check my phone and read
Just wanted to say goodnight. Goodnight, don't let the bed bugs bite, Lisayah
Goodnight love
I can't stop the smile growing on my face as I put my phone away
Jennie is such an amazing person
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My Chemistry Tutor
Fanfiction(story adaptation) The school knows Lalisa Manoban as the badass who always speaks her mind, but the truth is that she is barely holding on. She is forced to work long hours to support herself and her depressed mother and just wants to be reassure...
