The Social Tragedy Called A Potterhead

Memories, Your Person, And The End Of My Childhood

Okay, you know me by now. You know I am head over heels for Harry Potter books/movies/characters, anime and horror films, well I also have a huge love for music. Like I wanted to be this famous singer/dancer who was known worldwide and as I got older that dream was nearly impossible to reach and the fantasy worlds hidden in books was where I knew I was meant to be. I had still kept music close to my heart and like with anyone else many memories are connected with certain songs and books. It has always been a huge part of my life and as cliché as this sounds, it was my saving grace.

Orchestra was a thing in middle school ad high school but it could only do so much. I'm sure Symphony no. 5 in C minor by Beethoven was exciting to others on a daily but to me it was just routine and there was no actual fantasy and mystery in the classics. I was so excited when we would d the Halo theme, Star Wars, Harry Freaking Potter, Pirates of the Caribbean and hell we even did a concert at my high school for this band called CTS. Our first chair violinist had her dad in this band and it was a whole fundraiser event that was seriously so much fun to be a part of. Will post a video of one of the songs maybe not the CTS one but one of the fun ones if I can find one of our concerts on YouTube or something.

Anyway getting of topic..

Do you ever just go about your day and it's going great, nothing could really change your mood or how your day is going, that's how great it is until a song from ten years ago starts playing in a shop or in a car driving by and in that second years of memories flood your mind.

Those memories break down the walls you spent so much time building, trying to move on, and it's crazy how all that work washes away with the melody of your childhood whispers to you. Reminding you of the days with our old friends, old home, hardships, broken relationships, first meetings, last goodbyes, every single moment you vowed to forget in fear of them ruining you again.

No joke, Apologize by One Republic came on my Ipod the other day and within seconds it was like a movie was playing in my head. Middle school was like the worst three years of my life.

Then to make things worse Love The Way You Lie came on...

It was a huge look back at all the hard years growing up and it made me think. We all needed those hard times to make us who we are and we need to learn from our pasts to move forward.

People say that a good book can change a person's life and can help them get past things. To this day Connor and I, 7 years later, we are still the closest of friends and even though you might be having a rough patch, fall out of contact with a good friend, be in a very dark place you always have something or someone somewhere to help pull you back together. We reconnected one day when I needed her the most and bonded again over Harry Potter marathons. Sounds cheesy, I know.

Let's be honest here, memories are important some should be remembered and others should be forgotten. They are always lessons and never losses.

A good story can be what keeps others sane and happy, I don't believe in putting down any story because it might not mean much to me but to them it could be their whole world. It could be the only good thing they have in their lives at the moment.

The other day I was asked by this mom at my sister's school why I love reading these children's books and why I don't grow up and quit reading them. To be honest, I love them because they teach children there are bad people in the world, not everything is easy, not everyone had a happy family, friends stick by you when you need them most, in the darkest times of your life there is still that light which can bring you back. It taught me that even though someone is associated by something dark doesn't necessarily mean that they will be, people change yes some may be bad but some can be good, and they world is corrupt and dangerous but with the right people it can be okay.

It showed me that you can choose your family, that blood may not mean you have to love them and that you are related sure but a bond so strong and special that nothing can break is what makes you family. And to this day, I have an amazing one full of weirdos that I wouldn't change for anything. I Love you guys so much and want to thank you for being my weirdos. <3

That's the best kind of family in my opinion, all the friends that have been there though thick and thin, who are truly one in a million. Completely not HP related but you know how in Grey's Anatomy they came up with the concept of "Your Person"? I want to know, have you guys found your person yet?

That one person who you can trust to help you hide a body, deal with you when you're at your lowest and highest, that one person who you can just look at and they know exactly what you mean without needing to hear anything. I find it to be more true than that whole soul mate thing. Like who says you even encounter this so called "Soul Mate". I know some of you would say that about the whole "Your Person" thing but I think you have a greater chance of finding your person than a "Soul Mate".

Now to tie it in to the whole HP universe, we all have a person out there and some may even be as lucky to have two or three. Harry had Ron and Hermione, they had bond so strong even the most dangerous circumstances couldn't pull them away from each other in the end. They were and still are a family, the golden trio who still survive on the pages of our childhood stories. The books which we grew up with, the books we spent our childhood waiting in line at the midnight releases and movie premieres. If that's not a touching little moment here I don't know what would be. When the last film was finished and the last book was read I knew it was over. The last bit of my childhood was no longer have the suspenseful wait of one more book release or another crowded movie premiere at the local theater which I had brought both my parents to unwillingly. It was over.

You know when you don't want something to end so you try as hard as possibly can to prolong it, I guess in the end it can be scary but the final moments are usually some of the best. Even the end of school how shitty it may have been and the end of Harry's story for now.

I know this update has been very late and it has been kind of all over the place but it's just one of those days. But I love all of you who choose to read this and still want to read this. Please feel free to vote, comment, and follow. Hope you liked this kind of ranty nonsensical look back.

Autumn Marie :)