My husband

My marriage was decided this way.

He was there in front of me, trying hard to keep his smile. I just once looked at the man standing next to him. I shouldn't have done that. It only made sure that I still hadn't gotten over him, but it wasn't true. It had been years since I thought of him...

" You want to talk about it with each other?" my dad asked and we both nodded. I needed to know more about him before saying yes. 

" I know that you don't want this marriage," he started when we got alone and I just blinked. That was wrong. I wanted this marriage but, I decided to listen to what he had to say. 
" Tanish is my best friend," he started and I looked at the floor. That is why... 

I had a blank face on my face as he started saying whatever, I shouldn't have done that. 

" I know that you love him and your parents are against the marriage," my eyes shifted from the floor to his face at that. Such a handsome face he had, even when it had a frown on it. Such beautiful eyes he had. Such a stern expression he had. I drowned in his face.

" I'll get you both married," he declared and I shook my head. I had learned from my experiences that my dad was right. It was my fault for keeping people hanging in life. It was all my fault and although I couldn't tell it to everyone, I knew that it was my worthless heart and my useless tongue's fault.

" I don't want that," I wish I could say it but the way he kept his hand on my shoulder. I couldn't say anything. My lips couldn't even move. I couldn't take a single word out of my mouth. Not in that entire day.

" It's ok. You don't need to be scared," but I wasn't scared. I was just nervous... Is it my fault? He was the most wanted bachelor in the entire city. My friends, my enemies, random women, everyone had a crush on him.
He's good, he's handsome, he's sweet. How can I not be nervous with him around?

" I'm not scared," I managed to remove it out of my mouth in a small, timid voice and he sat back. The hand he had on my shoulder went back to his pocket and his frown came down. I think that he wanted to hear my voice because now, he was smiling again. I liked that smile. So, I smiled too but I think he took the wrong meaning of it.

" I'll get you married to Tanish. Don't worry," he told me, again and my smile came down. I had to tell him now...

" I don't want to marry him," I told him and his frown came back. I guess he had decided to get me married to my ex. No, I'm not even going to think of his name.

" We broke up 2 years ago not because of my family pressure," I started, " I broke it off with him because I knew that we didn't have a future. We used to fight every day, and I was tired. I got that over 2 years ago. I don't want to marry him,"

His expression was grim as if I told him something that was ghostly. My mind, heart, body, everything was telling me to tell him, that we were done. I didn't want that wedding because I knew that I couldn't survive life with Tanish. I had understood it the moment he left me for work that day. My dad was right.

" You sure? Because he still loves you and he's still waiting for you. It's been 2 years and he's changed," he told me, maybe to make my choice and I looked at the window. I could see him, looking at us from a distance, and nodded.
" I don't want it," I told him and looked back at him, " It's been 2 years and I've changed too," I declared and he kept a hand over his forehead and sighed deeply.

" We should not get married then," Did he have a girl? 
" He's my best friend and he still loves you," he told me and I looked at the floor. I didn't want to come between their friendship but
" You are my dad's choice and he's never wrong," he looked at me with wide eyes. The hand over his forehead came off and he just looked at me as I looked back at him