i'm writing a diary because i am very scared of losing all of my memories. i am deathly afraid of that, it's kind of a problem lmao bc i literally don't remember anything from my childhood. it's also bc i don't know myself, like i have no sense of self whatsoever. i don't want to talk about that so much because then i start freaking out and sometimes i have a panic attack or start dissociating and that's not very good. i hate both of those things because they're both very scary and sometimes the dissociating can last for days of feeling wrong. i actually don't know if it's called dissociating but i think it is. it could be depersonalisation or derealisation, i'm not 100% the differences tbh :/
also i am going to put my favourite song or album of the day as a video at the start of each day just so you know :)
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my diary
Randomlol this is literally gonna be my diary. you can read if you want, idk why you want to do that tho tbh and also don't expect it to be good bc i'm just gonna type what word comes into my head instead of making it sound good yknow? that's what i was j...
