i don't know why i keep thinking i'm getting better, it's just a vicious cycle. my mood swings are out of control, i'm full of emotions constantly yet i feel numb to everything at the same time. i'm not myself and i say that as if i even know what "myself" is.
i'm meeting two of my friends tomorrow, idk how i'm gonna do it. i have no energy to be funny but i feel worthless if i don't make those around me happy. logically, i know my friends would understand because they are some of the most amazing people i've ever met but i'm terrified of opening up to them in case they think i'm weird and leave me.
i'm sorry if this is becoming depressing to read
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my diary
Randomlol this is literally gonna be my diary. you can read if you want, idk why you want to do that tho tbh and also don't expect it to be good bc i'm just gonna type what word comes into my head instead of making it sound good yknow? that's what i was j...
