All Things Blue

18. All Things Choose

Blue was cheating on me.

I was pretty sure about it. It started first like this gut feeling. It wasn't necessarily something that made sense or something logical. I just had this feeling. It started one afternoon when I had come home from school. I was barely going to school now, I mean I was going once or twice a week. Mostly because after Blue's stint in rehab over winter break, Dr. Heath had written his teachers explaining that he was homebound. Blue told me being around all those people triggered him too much.

I wasn't sure if that was the truth or just an excuse for him to get out of school and as a result his teachers really thought he had cancer. Since Blue had this magical letter, he literally didn't have to go to school and he was always with me so it was easy to pretend as if I didn't have to go to school either. He spent most of his days in the bed with me sleeping his days away. He acted as if he was never going to get this chance to sleep this much again.

However, if Blue was awake he was either three places.

If he was home, he was in his gym downstairs working out for hours. He usually worked out first thing in the morning or late at night. I kept his sleeping pills crushed in his protein mix so I wasn't really surprised he would sleep right after he worked out. Blue hadn't had much energy lately and he barely worked out these days.

If he wasn't working out, he was cruising at the racetrack. I had never been with Blue to the racetrack and I went with him a few times cruising but whether he was cruising or racing he always ended up at the same place.

The train station.

I knew he liked to cruise and race because he was either thinking of nothing or everything. Either way he liked to do that at the train station. Blue told me before he liked to be at the train station because he was trying to remember his mother.

I don't think he had yet.

And if he wasn't any of those places, he was at Mikes.

He actually spent most of his time at Mike's and it was where I was used to him being.

I left school after turning in the work for that week and went by the store, Blue hadn't called me yet, but usually whenever I left school, Blue called and asked me to bring him his snacks. I did it anyways, grabbing Blue his $4 worth of snacks, a Gatorade and a medium sized KitKat, and placing them in Beulah.

I was heading to his house when I called him. He didn't answer and the phone went straight to voicemail as if he had turned it off. I didn't pay it any mind since Blue wasn't always on his phone. I pulled into his garage and walked into his house and went straight to his room only to find he wasn't there.

I set my bag down in his room and headed downstairs to check and see if he was in his gym. "Blue," I called after him. I didn't get a response.

He wasn't home.

I didn't pay it much mind and headed back outside to my car. I called Blue again but he still didn't answer. I saw the garage had both of his cars still here so where've he was, he had taken his motorcycle.

I figured he wasn't at the train station then since he liked to cruise in his car. I cranked up Beauluh after a few tries and headed over to Mike's. Blue and I hung out there quite a few times after my first time over there and Mike's house always had people over there, even if Mike wasn't there. It was as if the door to his house or more accurately his mom's house was always open.

I'd been over there more times than I could count on hand yet I'd never met his mom. I wasn't sure what she did or even what she looked like but she really was never home. I drove to Mikes place and saw a couple cars outside but no one familiar.