If Only You Knew

Chapter 2:

Hinata's P.O.V

Waking up to pancakes, that's always the best thing in the world. But today, I didn't want to get up. I wanted to go back in time and freeze in the moment when Kageyama first tossed to me. When he first acknowledge my worth. I was so happy. I'm not sure when I started to like Kageyama; but I think this had something to do with it. I would never be able to hit one of Kageyama's tosses without breaking down now. I won't ever be able to practice at lunch with him. I won't even feel comfortable being close to him anymore. Especially when Tsukki would always be there.

I heard running and banging, most likely Natsu rushing downstairs to get the biggest pancake that mum makes. I sighed, covering my head with my duvet. I was almost asleep when my door banged open and a serious looking Mum appeared in my doorway.

"What's taking you so long, not like my pancakes?" She asked gravely. Is she still pissed about the vase I broke yesterday morning.

"I'm sorry about you're vase. It was an honest mistake. I didn't mean to upset you." I muttered making her expression change.

"Oh sweety. What's the matter?" She gasped silently. "My little red head never cries." It was then that I realised that wet, salty tears were streaming down my face. I couldn't stop.

"Shouyou, what happened?"

"Mum, Kageyama got a boyfriend, and it wasn't me. It won't ever be. I had promised myself that I would either tell him the truth, or get over him. I mean he only thinks of me as a best friend anyway." I explained. I heard her gasp. 'Why didn't you tell me you were gay for Kageyama?' was probably what was going to come out of her mouth next.

"You know what your Father will say, don't you." She said sadly.

I shivered at the thought of my Father. He is a homophobic person. (A/N sorry guys this is turning into one of those cliche boyxboy books. It'll get better I promise.)He hates them; he beat up a couple of gays when we walked past them one day. Then yelled out things that should never be said to another.

"Yeah." I sighed, "Yeah I do."

"Let's not think about it then, lets just go downstairs and eat some pancakes and cream, ok?"

"Thanks mum, but I'm not hungry." I said as my stomach growled causing my mum to giggle.

"Your stomach is telling me otherwise, come on. It'll be good for you." She said before leaving the room. I sighed and got ready for the day.

'Today's Saturday. Meaning training, meaning I have to see Kageyama.' That was the thought that circled my head as I ate my pancakes and listened to Natsu go on and on about Sailor Moon. (A/N sorry, I had to. I know that most people don't like it but I couldn't think of a better anime for her to like. If you have one leave it in the comments.)

~~~ Training ~~~

It's halfway through training and everyone's getting worried about me. I mean who wouldn't be when I keep missing the ball, running slower than usual and jumping to late. Kageyama isn't even death glaring me because of it. He keeps watching Tsukki. I even served the ball to the back of his head today, and of course last time I did that he got so mad it was scary. But now he just looks at me and then turns his head back around. Like he is in to good of a mood to even bother getting the tiniest bit angry. Why? Why does he do this to me.

But I continued training as usual, pretending that I had fallen down the stairs this morning and my legs were still a little sore. When break came around I was so happy, I raced out of the gymnasium and toward the back of the school, there is a secret place there that only I know about. Or well can even get to. It's great because no one can see me there, but I can see everyone.

I climbed the small hill, counted all three rocks with the small hearts I have carved on them. I climbed under a fallen tree and ran for about 10 minutes.

There before me was a small lake. It's connected to some river that flows through the country toward the city. It's my place. I was going to ask Kageyama to come here and practice on 'that day.' But because that never happened I'm still the only one who knows about this place.

I walked over to the little tent I had hidden under a log and pulled it out. Setting up the tent by the waters edge and just sitting, listening to the sounds of the birds. 'This is probably the first time you have been quiet for more than 5 minutes.' That what Kageyama would say. I thought to myself. I looked at my watch realising that I had to be back at training in 5 minutes. I hastally packed up the tent and hid it again. I was about to run back the way I came when I heard a quiet groan.

"What was that?" I followed the sound of the noise till I reached a small secluded area. I peeked out from behind a bush and there they were. They two of them in a heated make-out session. Kageyama was sitting on Tsukki's lap and had his back to me. But Tsukki saw me but only mocked me by making Kageyama groan his name, slightly louder than before. He smirked into the kiss.

I was too shocked to look away. I wanted to move so badly, I wanted to run home, to turn and run. But my feet were rooted in place and my eyes weren't listening. Tears started to flow down my cheeks.

I finally gained control of my legs again, I turned and ran as fast as possible. Falling over multiple times. I ran towards the gymnasim. Telling Sugawara that I was going to be late for a family appointment.

I didn't even look back as I ran all the way home. Not caring that my teammates were calling after me. Not caring that I had left my bike on the rack. Hell I didn't even care if I got run over on the way home.

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Hey guys,

Sorry it took so long for me to update but I'm finally ahead with my chapters. It seriously has taken the weight off my shoulders. xD.

Also, I wanted to know if any of you are into MAGCON, o2l, Joe Sugg, Caspar Lee etc. Please leave it in the comments.

If anyone wants me to start a one shot book or anything tell me who, what when where etc. Send me them in a message.

OK thanks

Baii

- McIvor_Invers