If Only You Knew

Chapter 8

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Hinata's P.O.V

Shouyou! I Love you!"

Those three words made me stop in my tracks. I couldn't believe it. I really couldn't. But then like always, that negative black cloud clouded my mind.

'Why would he like me, no love me. He has Tsukki.'

That thought shutdown all my happiness. This was just a way to make me happy so I will play well.

"No Kageyama, no you don't. You have Tsukki and you're so happy together. You're just trying to keep me happy so I'll play well. You haven't changed. You're treating me just like you did your last team, only worse. Instead of just being an ass. You're toying with my emotions." I said to him, trying to stop my voice from wavering, before running off again, straight home.

Kageyama's P.O.V

"No Kageyama, no you don't. You have Tsukki and you're so happy together. You're just trying to keep me happy so I'll play well. You haven't changed. You're treating me just like you did your last team, only worse. Instead of just being an ass. You're toying with my emotions." He said, but his voice wavered. He really was upset. He really doesn't believe me. That moment my heart broken, no more like shattered. For the first time in years, I cried. I cried watching him run out of the school gates.

When his footsteps could no longer be heard I fell to the ground. I couldn't believe I just did that. Not only had I been a bastard, I confessed my love only to be brushed aside. But I guess I kind of disserved that. That's when I realised it, I couldn't believe I hadn't realised sooner. I am not fit for society.

So I gave up, I gave up on school; I gave up on being in Japan's national team; I even gave up on myself. But the hardest thing I had to give up on in that moment; was Hinata.

~/~Next Day~/~

Hinata's P.O.V

Beep, Beep, Beep.

The beeping continued as I searched for the clock blindly. It was the weekend already. I had skipped school for most of the week. I didn't want my friends asking how practice was, I don't want my team mates continuously asking me if I was ok. But mostly I just really don't to see him, or hear his voice or even hear his name; it just made me more miserable. I picked up my phone to see 10 missed calls from Sugawara, 6 from both Tanaka and Nishinoya, 3 from Daichi, 17 from Kageyama himself. I threw my phone at the wall, yearning a yell from my mother and father who were downstairs making breakfast. I turned over and snuggled back under my blankets, not feeling like going for my morning run. I feel back asleep, until mum came barging in through the door demanding she knows what has me in a slump this time. I just groaned as a reply and pulled the blankets over my head. Due to the fact that my mother is a persistent and annoying women she continued to poke me saying "tell me" with each poke, slowly speeding up each time, before she gave up and just yanked my sheets off my bed. I let out a girly scream and she burst out laughing. Telling me I have never looked or sounded more like a girl than that moment. If she wasn't my mother I would have smacked her on the back of her head.

She told me to hurry up and get dressed and have breakfast because my friend Kuroo was downstairs waiting. Which juts made me pull my blankets out of my mother's hands and pull them back on top of me, attempting to go back to sleep.

"Oh no you don't. You haven't left this room since you got home on Tuesday. You will get your ass in that shower and go be with your friend, it'll do you some good. Besides I have to light a dozen candles, open every window in the house, and prepare to meet creatures that have yet to be discovered just to get this room back to its normal stature." She said grinning at me while pushing me into the bathroom. I simply sighed and began my morning routine, wishing the day would just end.

~/~Three hours later ~/~

I was walking down the path towards the park where Kuroo told me they were holding the game for the bet. The game; volleyball, just what I needed. We continued walking in silence, but it wasn't awkward, it was comfortable. After about ten more minutes we were surrounded by Kuroo's team mates who were just as lively as my team in all honesty. There seemed to be a version of each person on my team on his team. We were about to start the game when I remembered that I had not put my phone down so I rushed off court to place it with my other stuff when I heard my ring tone. I opened up my phone to see the ID caller, and it was none other than Kageyama.

'I'll have to face him sooner or later.'

With a sigh I answered the call.

"What do you want Kageyama? Now isn't the best time."

"I...didn't think you would pick up."

"Then why did you call?"

"Because if I hadn't I wouldn't be able to say these 16 words that I have been trying to tell you for the past week. I love you but now, I have to go and I'll see you in 80 years." With that he hung up.

I have been running for 10 minutes now, running to the one place I was sure he would be. The creek where we used to always practice when we couldn't use the gymnasium. It was our place that no one else knew about. That is where I knew he would be. So when I turned the corner and came face to face with a crying Bakayama I couldn't help but run and hug him.

"Please don't leave me, don't leave me behind. I won't move on without you. I want to reach nationals and internationals with you. I want to side by side with you for the rest of my life. So please don't do this!" I said as I saw the gun in his hand.

"While I want the same, what you said isn't what I want the most." He said bringing the gun to his head. "Please turn away and don't look back. I am not worth it."

'No, don't make me say it, please. Once I say this four word sentence, I won't ever be able to go back. I will have admitted it, I won't be able to deny it, I will have to relive everything you have done to me good or bad for the rest of my life. So please don't make me say it.'

But he only grinned at me with a tear stained face. But somehow he didn't look scary "Goodbye Hinata." He said removing the safety on the gun. "Smile for me would you?"

But I couldn't do that, I couldn't stop the tears running down my face. "Kageyama I love you, you idiot. If only you knew how long I wanted to say that. If only you knew how much I love you." I screamed, running forward. 

...But he had already pulled the trigger...