Choose Me

yearning

My eyes sprung open at my door flying across my room. I sat up and rubbed my eyes as my dad and brother came waltzing into my room.

"She had earphones in... That's why she didn't hear us," Owen groaned.

I laid back down and curled up. "Are you getting out of bed today?" My dad asked as he came towards me. I shook my head.

"Ayla, you need to, baby." He sighed.

I ignored them. What I needed to do was find the courage to go and reject Ethan. But I couldn't. No matter how many times I siked myself up, I always end up a blubbering mess.

They both left the room, and I stayed where I was. I spent the full day in bed. I didn't eat or drink. I only got out for the toilet, which wasn't often.

My parents and Owen keep coming in and out, but I don't acknowledge them. I know they only want to help, but I just want to be left alone.

I was spiralling further into a depressive state, and I couldn't pull myself out. Everything seemed dark, I was sinking deeper into darkness. I'm afraid that once I'm there, I won't be able to get out.

"Ayla, please, will you eat something?" My mom asked from my doorway. I didn't answer her. I laid there staring at the wall. I know they're worried about me; I can hear them talking.

My whole body aches. My limbs feel heavy. This is the bond punishing us for being apart. It's only going to worse if I don't do something about it.

I wonder how he's feeling... Is he feeling as bad as me? Is he yearning for me as I am for him? Is he functioning properly without me by his side?

I wish the bond wasn't invisible. I wish it was something solid, something I could destroy. I want to be free from him but I can't physically bring myself to do it.

"Ayla, if you don't eat, we're going to have to get you hospitalized." She sighed, "baby, your wolf needs the nutrients too." She whispered.

I sat up and took the plate from my mom. I picked up the sandwich and started eating. I didn't realise how hungry I was until now. I shovelled it down without pausing to take a breath.

Once I'd finished I handed her the plate back and laid back down in the bed. She sighed sadly before leaving the room.

I sighed, sat up and grabbed the glass of water Owen left for me earlier. I gulped it down before laying down again.

I could feel my mind link being poked at. Someone was trying to get through. I already knew who it was... Everyone else has popped around to sit with me even though I'm not much company.

I dragged in a shaky breath and opened the mind link for him. Damn stupid bond.

"Thank fuck you answered. Last night, it wasn't what you thought." He blurted through the link.

"I don't care," I whispered.

"Sweetheart, we're going to the store... Mind link us if you need us." She muttered before walking away.

"I know you felt something... Mateo came to me. Ayla, can I see you? Please, I'm dying without you." He whined.

I took a deep breath, say no... Don't let him.

"Come round, no one is in," I replied.

Fuck, why did I do that?

"I'm on my way." He answered back.

'I'm here... We reject him!' Athena growled. 'I'll take over if it's easier.' She added

I took a deep breath and got out of bed. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth, made myself look a bit more human.

"Doors unlocked," I added before shutting down the link.

I left my bathroom, I jumped and gasped. He was stood in the middle of my bedroom. His eyes were dark and dull, he looked bad. That made me feel a little better.

"I'm dying without you, Ayla. Eros is insane, he wants out and he wants Athena." He groaned.

"You know we can't," I whispered.

"Mark her." I choked. His eyes went wide and he shook his head.

"What do you expect then? Keep us both?" I whimpered.

"I don't know. I'm supposed to mark her, she's carrying my pup." He sighed.

I sucked in a breath and bit down on the inside of my mouth. Don't cry, don't let him see you cry!

"So, what are you doing here?" I asked.

"Fuck, I don't know. Before we knew we were mates, I loved you, I love you." He blurted.

"I won't be a side piece, Ethan." I snapped.

"I don't know what to do." He whimpered.

"You should have thought about that before getting your cock wet," I growled.

"You need to let me go." I sighed.

He pushed me up against the wall and my breath caught in my throat. Having him this close wasn't helping anything. His scent was driving me and my wolf crazy. My core was throbbing at just the feeling of his body pushed up against mine. I was fighting a losing battle.

"I'll never let you go, Ayla. You're mine." He breathed against my neck. I shivered and I felt his cock harden against my thigh.

"I'm not... Not anymore," I moaned as he rubbed his pelvis against mine.

"Baby, please." He whimpered. "I love you, Ayla, I'm just stuck." He whined as he swiped his tongue against my neck.

"Stuck with what?" I asked as I tangled my fingers through the back of his hair. He moaned and kissed along my neck.

"I want you, I want you so bad. But, I can't just leave Jasmine... I need to be with her too." He moaned as he rocked his cock against my core.

"What are you proposing?" I breathed as I matched his movements, grinding against his cock. A husky growl rumbled from his chest and he sucked where his mark should be. I bit back a moan and continued with my movements.

My body was on fire, I needed some sort of relief. My breath was coming out in quick pants. He was worming his way in and he knew it. I could feel my arousal on my panties. I needed him to say something... Anything just so I could do what I wanted. I was so close.

"I'll mark Jasmine just so I can keep her happy for our pup, but I'll always be yours. Can I have you just one time? I need to feel you around my cock." He moaned as he went to press his lips against mine.

I gripped his hair and yanked his head back. He gasped and gaped at me, "I, Ayla Harding, reject you, Ethan Quinn as my mate, now and forever." I deadpanned before shoving him backwards.