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{29} [johnny]

"It's gonna be fine." Minhee holds my hair back as i lean over the toilet, throwing up my meal from yesterday. "Let it all out."

"Dont let me drink again." I flush the chain, leaning against the bathtub, it's horrible.

"Oh, i won't. I don't want to hear you cry again." She rubs my shoulder, "You worried me last night."

"It's your fault." I rest my head in my hands, "Shouldve let me tell him in my own time."

"Would have did you no good." She speaks the truth, "Now he knows-"

"And has ignored me for the past three weeks." I know he's got it worse than me but i need to talk this all out with him.

"Maybe he needs time." She suggests.

"Maybe he hates me and is never going to talk to me again." That makes more sense to me, i would hate me too if i were in his shoes.

"You should try contacting him." She says, standing up and pulling me with her. "Maybe he's waiting on you."

"No. I'll save myself the embarrassment, don't want to get a door slammed in my face." I rise my mouth out with mouthwash.

"I bought you a few things, and i'm going to take Prince to the doggy park too so you can do it alone." She walks out of the bathroom, i follow her slowly, my stomach and head still aching.

I sit on the stool in the kitchen and she hands me a bag. I open it up, "Really Minhee?" I look down at the pregnancy tests. "I'm not pregnant, we used protection."

"You have been moody, and showing all the signs of pregnancy since you guys broke up-"

"Considered i'm moody because i just lost him? Or because i have so much shit going on that it's effecting my mental health?" I close the bag over, that would also just be the worse thing right now.

"Do it." She pushes the bag closer.

"No." I look her dead in the eye.

"Seoyeon, get it out of the way, clear it first. I know somethings going on with you. Take the test, if it comes back negative, hallelujah, if not and it's positive it gives you a reason to try again with Taeyong." She smiles, "I'll be back in about two hours, i better get an answer when i'm done." She whistles, Prince jumping off the couch and running over to her happily.

"Goodbye." I grab my phone, getting off the stool.

"Do it." She says loudly before walking away.

I contemplate for about twenty minutes, there's no way. Really, there's no way.

But as she said, just to be sure. I took the test, two of them just in case. She even got two different ones.

I keep them in the bathroom while i do our laundry, having to wait fifteen minutes for the tests to be accurate. I finish tidying around the apartment a little more and then go into the bathroom to check.

Two red lines.

Oh you have got to be kidding me.

I just stare at the tests in utter confusion and also annoyance, the timing i have with Taeyong is the absolute worst.

Now, even though we haven't spoke in three weeks, haven't seen each other in three week, i have to find him and tell him i'm pregnant.

I wrap them in tissue, figuring Minhee's logic is right. There's no point waiting, i need to get this over and done with, and hopefully sort things out between him and i.

I change quickly, to something more presentable than shorts and a sports bra. I grab my phone and pepper spray which i've been carrying around too, anxious.