𝗶𝗻 𝗮 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱 norenmin

11: moving on is the only way out

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HUANG RENJUN.

"So you're telling me you've been stuck to him ever since you-"

"Yup."

Chenle's brows furrow in confusion as he ponders over the things I tried my best to explain.

It's one thing to see your childhood best friend break down... but seeing their dead boyfriend right next to them is a different thing entirely; something I'm sure is affecting him indefinitely.

"Witnessing him fall apart after hoping I was gonna make it - when I already knew the truth - was the worst thing I have ever experienced. I don't even know why I'm here. It's not like there's any other ghost things wandering around with me." I sigh, exhausted from the repetition of it all.

It's as if Chenle thinks I didn't spend all those hours, lonely, invisible and bored, thinking about all the reasons in the universe as to why I existed.

"Maybe you can't move on yet... maybe there's some sort of barrier stopping you from going on to the afterlife... like a personal thing you need to overcome in order to allow your soul to rest peacefully?" He looks up at me and I play his words back in my head over and over again.

"Jaemin..." I breathe, suddenly understanding who this is all for. "It has to be something to do with Jaemin... because if he never moves on from me... then I'm tied here."

Realization hits me like a ton of bricks, and Chenle voices my thoughts.

"But how on earth are we supposed to convince him that that's what's best for you... when he can't see you...? I can tell you now, he will absolutely rip my head off if I mention anything about forgetting you. That man is willing to keep your memories until the day he dies."

I can't help but smile fondly at those words, knowing all too well how true they were. But I'm going to need Jaemin to move on from me... otherwise neither of us could ever be happy.

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hii guys! i don't usually write authors notes but i just wanted to apologise for how long it took me to update this!

over the past few months, i have had a lot of struggles with feeling motivated enough to write anything.

my mental health also took a bit of a downwards spiral not long ago, and while i am not recovered from it, i find writing a therapeutic outlet for dealing with it.

so i'm really glad i was able to give you guys another chapter :)

thank you to everyone who has continued to support this book even during my absence - we're almost at 200 reads!

please comment whenever you want - i love interacting with you guys!

hopefully i'll be able to update regularly sometime in the near future, since i have gained some motivation back!