Suicidal Love

Chapter 10

I heard beeping and I heard people talking, I opened my eyes and I seen a white room, I got up a little and I looked at Sam he was crying and he had dark circles under his eyes, I looked at Kian with blood shot eyes, I looked and seen JC with tear stains, Connor was asleep with bright red circles around his eyes, and Trevor was in the bathroom I heard him throw up. I didn't see Ricky but then he walked in with food, he didn't even realize me until I said "Food" really quiet. He smiled and hugged me and Sam shot up and hugged me and same with everybody else. I pushed them off and said I was fine but they didn't beleive me, I mean I had crazy messed up hair, tear stains, cuts, red rope marks, and I had a tube in my stomach. Everyone left KiKi and I together, I stood up and I hugged him and I kissed him. he was so tall I had to stand on my tippy toes, he hugged and kissed me back, he pulled me towards the couch in the room and we cuddled and we watched some movies. Later that night he bought Panda Express and some Starbucks I got really excited. We ate and watched our movie and we fell asleep. I woke up in the middle of the night having a panic attack, I remember reading a text and dieing and I started to shake. I woke up KiKi on accident and he cradled me and kissed my cheek singing classic by MKTO. I calmed down and I walked away from his arms and I went in the hall, I was stopped by Kian he pulled me back into the room, he kissed me and he told me that I was too important too die. I laughed and said "people tell me too die, they tell me I shouldn't have been born" Kian hugged me and he told me "you're important, you leave me breathless everytime I see you,you are too pretty and important to die baby" I hugged him even more and I kissed him. We walked back over to the couch and we talked and we started to cuddle, I finally fell back asleep. Before I knew it Sammy was shaking me awake, "hey you get to leave today" I sat up and walked into the bathroom I got on clothes and fixed myself. I walked back out and I seen Kian staring at me and I winked, Sam looked at me and he whispered "did you guys have sex" I told we didn't he just told me something and it makes me happy. Sam rolled his eyes and walked away, I followed him and Kian pulled me back and kissed me and he carried me to the car. We all crowded into one car I was in the back middle, Kian was next to me, Sam was on the other side,Connor in front we finally arrived at the house where Kian carried me to the door. when we got inside I seen Kian pull out his phone and he orders pizza. Then I trip over the coffee table "Shit" he picks me up and we go upstairs...