Marly's POV
Lexi starts to cry so i jump awake. "Maaa!" I look around but she isn't in the room. Emma walks out of the bathroom trying to calm her down. I get up to take her but Emma moves so she's out of reach.
"You don't have to keep taking my daughter from me. You already have my husband in your bed. I know he had a thing for you in high school but his with me now." The fuck. Why has she been such a bitch lately?
"He came to visit Mad and fell asleep because that man is exhausted. I slept on the seat after calming YOUR daughter down. Do you really think i would do anything to get in the way of you guys?"
She looks at me then at Lexi who is red in the face from crying. She hands her over to me and she immediately quiet down.
Emma looks at her daughter and starts to cry. I take her outside of the room so Tony doesn't wake up. "What's happening?" She keeps looking down at Lexi.
"She hates me, my daughter hates me and can't stand to be arms me. I don't want her to cry so im not home but that makes Tony mad. He should be, im useless."
I sigh looking down at Lexi sleeping now. "She doesn't hate you Emma but you're afraid of being a mom so you chose to not be one. She might be just 22 months but she can feel it. You need to spend time with her AND Tony."
I slowly hand Lexi over to her. She takes her but she still looks uncomfortable.
"it's okay to be afraid of being a bad mom but don't put the pressure of being a perfect one because there's no such thing." I move her hands so she holds her correctly.
Tony groans walking out to us. He sees Emma and glares at her before trying to take Lexi away. I hold him back. "Let her and talk to her." I look at Emma. "No screaming." She nods smiling.
"Well im going back to bed, my head hurts." They nod as i walk in going straight to my bed now that it's empty. "Good morning Mad, don't be to loud." I yawn curling in bed.
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I groan looking over the case files. Im looking at 5 years maximum but i don't want to live with the fear of knowing that he's out there. Close enough to hurt Angel or Maddox.
I have a plan but it has to be a last resort. I look at Maddox who has a lot more color in his face making me smile. "What do you think i should do?" I wince rubbing my forehead.
"Do you think he was right? I love you but i keep letting fear hold me back. Im a coward aren't i. I run away from my feelings which makes me run away from you." I sigh and sit next to him.
"I thought i was over that. The constant fear of people leaving me. Every time you left my bed i was waiting for you to say that you got tired of waiting for me. You never did."
I put our foreheads together. "Please be healthy when you wake up. Mad...let's make another deal." I cry and my tears fall to his cheeks.
"You wake up and i will be yours. Let my babies be yours. I want my future to be yours too. You told me you wanted to be with me until we look like raisins, i want that too but you have to wake up baby."
I step back cleaning my face. I look to the side and that's when i see mrs. King by the door looking at me crying. "He would really love that." I nod laughing through the tears.
"We are both so stubborn that it takes one of us going to the hospital for us to admit our feelings."
She laughs hugging me as i clean my face again. "Sorry i can't seem to stop crying lately." She walks in putting her purse down. "i've noticed and it's not like you so." She hands me a pregnancy test.
I groan "the headaches too. I should have known." She smiles looking at Mad. "I think you were busy with my son."
I look at him too. "He would want this right? Im not wrong when i believe that he would be happy if it's true?"
"I would never get an abortion. Not after everything i went through to be a mom but he wouldn't ask me to, i don't think he would. He would be happy." I repeat trying to convince myself.
She nods "more than happy. Go see if im right." She practically pushes me to the bathroom. I laugh closing the door. Am i crazy? i want her to be right, even with everything that's going on.
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I walk out with a frown on my face. She walks to me and sighs "i guess i was wrong." I put the test up and start to dance around. "Nope." She laughs looking at me. "Oh you are so cruel."
I laugh putting it in front of Maddox. "Hey Pa you better wake up to see me grow." I whisper in his ear before giving him a kiss on his forehead.
He should be up in a month now and i should be around 3 months pregnant of my math is right about when it happened.
But when is my math ever wrong?
Now more than ever i need every one to be safe.
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I knock on her door hoping that they are home. Mrs.King gave me the address and the final push i needed to come. She wanted to come with me to but this is something i need to do by myself.
She opens the door and looks like she aged 20 years in the last seven. Stress can do that to a person. "miss Holt." She whispers before trying to close the door in my face but i put my foot in.
Fuck that hurts way more than what they make it look like in the movies.
"I need to talk to you and I'm not leaving until i do." I barge in. "my lawyer told me not to speak with you." Mrs. Knox follows me in. I nod "then you have a good lawyer."
I sit down so she sighs and does the same. "I will be truthful with you. I want your son to be locked away for life." She shakes her head. "That's not happening."
I shrug "but it is, if you're smart. Maybe i won't get that from the court but you can signed the papers to keep him in mental institute." She shakes her head but i keep going.
"You know your son better than anyone. You knew he was capable of hurting somebody that's why you made me look after him, putting me in danger."
She looks down. "The court will put him under your custody again after maybe being locked up for five years then you will have to follow him around but you can't take care of him."
"I can."
"You can't. What happened to me proves you can't. What happened to Maddox proves you can't. He did the crimes but you are at fault because you know you can't and you keep letting him walk around putting other people in danger." She looks around the room.
"Who has to die before you do something about it? I have a child."
She interrupts "how?" I sigh "A lot of money and a lot of risk but i do. Little Angel four years old. Are you waiting for James to get out and hurt him next time." She looks down crying.
"i'm pregnant right now and the father my baby is in a hospital bed. He can't be with us and now we don't know what will happen after he wakes up or if he will."
"What if he hurts this baby too. Can you live with that? He can't be held fully accountable for his actions but you are aware of the ones you are making."
"But his my son he can't be looked away forever." I get up. "Im a mother too." I raise my voice.
"You won't listen to reason listen to this. Next time he comes for MY family and there will be a next time. I will be ready, gun in hand and ready to shoot because i will do anything to protect my family. You don't want to see your son locked up, let's see how much you enjoy seeing him in a casket."
She gets up shaking her head. "Are you threatening me?!" I shrug. "It's called self defense and i won't miss." I walk out leaving her to glare at my back.
