your pov
after sending the tweet, tommy and i go back up to his room and sit down on the bed, barely apart.
"would you like me to put on some music?" i ask, breaking the silence.
"sure"
i put my playlist on shuffle.
(I'm Not In Love - Kelsey Lu)
we sit there, in silence again as the song starts playing,
i'm not in love
i take a glance at him only to see he's staring at me
so don't forget it
he looks away and so do i
it's just a silly phase i'm going through
even though the music is relatively loud, i can hear his breathing, shaky, and i'm sure he can hear mine as well
and just because, i call you up
i look at him and he looks lost in thought
don't get me wrong, don't think you've got it made
silence, no movement.
i'm not in love, it's because
in a spur of the moment i say
"i like you tommy"i like to see you
"what" he stutters out
but then again
fuck. i ruined it. "i like you"
that doesn't mean you mean that much to me
"well i quite like you too we're friends"
so if i call you,
"no, i LIKE like you, like more than a friend"
don't make a fuss
"oh"
sitting under the purple LED lighting, on his bed, music in the background, i regret my words.
don't tell your friends about the two of us.
"i'm sorry, nevermind"
i'm not in love
i get up to climb out the window and he stands up and grabs my arm. "wait"
oh no
"you dont feel the same and ive ruined it" i say, shakily.
it's because
all of the sudden, he pulls me in and kisses me. the moment is perfect, it feels like it could last forever. perfection in it's finest. kissing the boy i've loved for months. my first kiss.
enveloped in the music and lighting and affection.
i keep your picture
i pull away, embarassed, but smiling
up on the wall
"you like me?" i question
it hides a nasty stain thats lying there
"maybe a bit too much" he states, flicking me on the forehead.
so don't you ask me
"well"
to give it back
"well what?" he asks
i know you know it doesn't mean that much to me
"thats poggers"
i'm not in love
"shut the fuck up"
no, no, it's because
we lay on his bed, in comfortable silence. his hand in mine, sweaty, clammy, but lovely. music continues to play.
and for the first time ever i fall asleep next to him.
YOU ARE READING
impossible. - tommy x reader
Fanfiction"well, don't you want a picture?" "excuse me?" "surely you know who i am." "i'm not sure i do, sorry." "impossible. --------- a work in progress :) no smut, purely fluff/angst