The nerd Project 3

Chapter 5: Luna

Chapter 5

Luna’s pov

Going to school was torture.

Not because I don’t like school.

It’s because he is here.

I used to be one of the “golden ones.”

The popular clique that everyone liked.

I used to love the attention I got.

Now I just want to fade into the background.

I came back to school nothing like the girl I was last year.

I used to be so strong, and confident.

Now I am weak and always so unsure of myself.

He changed me forever.

I went to a party with my boyfriend.

If I had known he would ditch me for some other girl I would never have gone.

While everyone else was getting drunk I stuck to water.

I thought I was safe only talking to people I knew.

Little did I know that something dark was lurking in one of those so called friends I knew.

He got me a water, and soon after I drunk it I felt dizzy.

He helped me to one of the rooms so I could lay down, and even got me a wash rag to put over my eyes.

I must have passed out because when I woke up he was raping me.

I couldn’t move, or fight him.

He says because I didn’t that I must have wanted it.

I stayed in that bed the rest of the night crying and unable to move.

The next day one of the girls I knew found me and helped me get dressed to go home.

She asked me what happened, but I said nothing.

I felt so ashamed.

I blamed myself.

I couldn’t tell anyone what happened.

I hurried to my room, and threw away my clothes.

I didn’t want to see them again.

Then I got in the shower and scrubbed my skin until I bled.

All summer long I stayed home.

I didn’t go anywhere or talk to anyone.

I was too frightened that I would see him again.

So I was able to somewhat deal with everything.

Now here I was going back to school, and the fear has returned.

My mom was worried about me so she talked to a friend that told her about the nerd project.

So here I am.

At least I know I won’t run into him in class.

I just hope I don’t see him before or after school.

I refuse to go into the lunch room so I will avoid him there as well.

Maybe I will be lucky and he stopped going here.

I feel so sick just thinking about it.

At least my teacher is a female.

I get very uncomfortable around guys.

It’s bad enough that there is guys in class with me.

I sat down towards the back hoping to go unnoticed.

A guy walked in and started writing on the board.

This is all wrong.

No way can I be in a class with a male teacher.

All guys frighten me because of him.

I felt a panic attack coming on.

I can’t do this.

I should be home safe in my room.

I could feel tears wanting to spill out.

I thought I could do this, but I couldn’t.

He was going to get to me again.

I felt as if everyone was looking at me.

I had to get out of here, and now.

The guy started to talk, but I didn’t hear anything he said.

I put my ear buds in to try to calm myself down.

I didn’t want to bring attention to myself by freaking out.

And to think this is just the first day.

How was I going to make it through the whole year?

pic of Luna included