The nerd Project 3

Chapter 11: Shay

Chapter 11

Shay’s pov

I shouldn’t be here Jonah wasn’t going to like me being in school.

He wanted me to spend all my time with him.

We met a few years ago, and fell in love.

He was so sweet and loving.

All that changed a year ago.

Now he is abusive, and has even hit me.

I know he’s on drugs but I don’t mention it.

My parents no nothing about this.

They just saw that my grades are slipping and hurried to get me in the nerd project.

They have no clue why I have changed all of a sudden.

Getting controlled and beat on will do that to you.

Every little thing I did would set him off.

I knew once he saw I was in a classroom full of guys he would be angry.

He said I should drop out, but I didn’t want too.

I loved going to school.

I had my future planned out.

Now I was scared my boyfriend would kill me before I even had a chance to really live.

Jonah was smart leaving bruises where no one could see.

Of course after he did it he would cry and say he was sorry.

Then the very next day he would do it all over again.

I know he doesn’t love me.

No one could do this to someone they loved.

I wanted to leave him, but I was scared.

He told me if I ever left him he would kill me and my family.

That fear made me stay.

Maybe I should just drop out.

I mean what good could come out of this nerd project?

All it was going to do was make Jonah angry then he would hurt me.

I hated the person I have become.

I allowed him to make me weak.

I let him beat on me.

Maybe I deserved everything he dished out.

I was so stupid.

Maybe him ending my life wasn’t such a bad thing after all.

At least in death I would no longer be in pain.

Pic of Shay included