The nerd Project 3

Chapter 18: Raven

Chapter 18

Raven’s pov

Trying to figure out who you want to be when all anyone ever wants to do is judge you based on your past.

It’s like everywhere I go my name follows me.

Don’t get me wrong I love my dad.

I’m just sick of being the big bad biker gang’s daughter.

For once I want to just be Raven.

I have been dating Sebastian for a few months now.

Everything was going great until his father googled me.

Now if Sebastian wants his trust fund he needs to dump me.

He says he doesn’t care what his father has to say, but I know he does.

I mean who does his father think he is?

He busted up his family to be with someone else.

I don’t think he should judge me based on who my family is.

I have tried to prove I am a good person.

I thought I was finally out of my father’s shadow.

I was happy being involved in the nerd project.

I was making friends, and starting over.

Now that people know who my father is they avoid me.

I feel like I take one step forward to get pushed ten steps back.

Will I ever have a normal life?

I try to think of my future, but with my family I know I will never have one.

I will end up in prison or dead.

I wish my dad would give the club life up, but I know he never will.

That club means more to him than even me.

I learned the cold hard truth a long time ago.

I have asked him to walk away from it all before.

The only thing he walked away from at the time was me.

He sent me away saying I couldn’t come back until I respected the club.

Maybe once I graduate I’ll move away, and change my name.

I have actually been talking to Jamie and Lea about my options.

I just can’t live this life anymore.

I have lost so many people because of my dad, and his club.

I was done with it all.

I just hope when the time comes for me to leave that my dad will let me go.

I need to do something with my life, and I refuse to live in the club any longer.

That was my father’s legacy not mine.

I admit I used to want it, and I was the biker chick through and through.

But I have grown up, and now I want something more.

I need something more.