Costiño Series 9: Owned By Soldier Heart (HANDSOMELY COMPLETED)

Kabanata 15

Kabanata 15

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Pinikit ko ang mga mata habang kaharap si Ruso at ang mga staff ng teleserye. Nasa bar kami dito sa Cambodia at last day na namin dito dahil bukas ay uuwi na kami pabalik ng Pilipinas. The director treat us a party drink tonight, kaya hindi kami tumanggi. Ruso is very excited while sitting on his chair. Kanina pa ako hindi mapakali, hindi nakausap si Amado ng tatlong araw. And I intend it! I intend to not communicate with him. I intend to forget him just for this day. Kasi habang nandito ako ng isang linggo, I have realized everything.

I realized that he wasn't good for me. He's not a better man for me! Na kahit may pangarap siya sa buhay, hindi pa rin ako kuntento sa mga iyon. I want more! I want to be honest and say this, I am not bound to end with him! Masyado siyang low class para sa akin. A rot mendicant doesn't deserve me! He is way too far from my future and my wants! Kaya iyon ang naisip ko sa lumipas na mga araw. Dagdagan pa ang sinabi ng mga staff sa akin yesterday.

"Miss Salvacion, I know we don't have the right to say and to intrude with your life but we are just concern for your famousness. Hindi man namin kilala ang lalaki, pero base sa usap-usapan na kumakalat sa internet ngayon, he was bashed because of his life and look." one of the staff said.

Napahinga ako ng malalim. Early of Wednesday, the news spread like virus about my secret boyfriend and it was Amado. He was bashed drastically and cruelly by my fans who disapprove him. Kaya hindi ako nag-open ng social media ko to escape from their hurtful statement for my man. At kaya wala kaming communication for the past days.

"You are at the top of your career, Miss Salvacion. You have a fans that are millions worldwide. Some of them are harsh when it comes to you, and when it comes to your boytoy. Kaya ngayon, spreading the news about your man makes the world of showbusiness turn around. Alam mong na sayo ang mga mata ng kalaban mo sa industriyang ito. And who knows, maybe one of them are spying on you." Garret, my make-up artist spoke.

They are right! The spreading of the news are worldwide now. And base on their word and reaction, my enemy in showbusiness is happy because I was bash with my boyfriend. Dagdagan pang ininsulto nila si Amado na labis kong kinahiya at kinasakit. Kinahiya ko si Amado kasi ngayon ko lang na-realize na malayo talaga siya sa mga tipo ko. Mahirap, walang dating sa buhay at siguradong naghihingalos pa rin. Kinasakit ng puso ko dahil kahit pa itago at ikahiya ko siya, aminado akong nasa puso ko na siya. Nakadikit na siya sa puso ko.

And I hate it! I hate thinking about it! Paano ko siya minamahal and at the same time, kinakahiya? Am I that cruel? Am I that heartless? Kasi kung mahal ko, bakit ko naman ikakahiya? Bakit ko naman ikakahiya ang totoong buhay niya? Bakit ko naman iisipin na magiging hadlang siya sa kasikatan ko? At bakit ko naman iisipin na ganoon siyang lalaki? If I love him, I should accept him wholeheartedly! If I love him, I shouldn't be ashamed about his life, his mendicant life! And if I love him, I shouldn't be like this! Feeling so guilty and disbelief that I let him into my heart!

"And to honest, he will be your destroyer. From your congeneracy. We all know that having his background life and his looks, everyone think and specially your fans that he will just use you to lift up his life from hell. We both know that your fans all over the world are arduous, poignant and cruel. They can do what they want! They can spread false news and disrupt your little secret love." dagdag ni Milky, my hairstylist.

Their words may be hurtful but it's true! Their words are fucking true! Amado will be a destroyer! At ang masama pa ay posible siyang siraan ng mga fans ko. Knowing them, they can ruin his life in a snap of fingers. And I can't bear my Amado ruined by my fans! I cannot bear losing him too, but fucking hell I need to make a decision! I need to make a decision that will benefits for us!