YOU WANT ME?!? ~ Ralph Macchio

Thinking - Chapter 28

We woke up to laiklyn wining. Not crying, thankfully. I got up and went to where laiklyn was. I was stumbling around trying to calm laiklyn. It wasn't even day time. It was 2am.
Some way to wake up.
I calmed laiklyn down and set her to bed. She quickly fell asleep. I walked back to me and Ralph's room. I see him there shirtless, as it was hot.
I walked out and turned the air conditioner on and went to laiklyn, putting blankets on her. I walked back to see Ralph putting a shirt back on.
I walked to him laying down on top of him. He messed with my hair, almost making me fall asleep immediately.
Almost as I'm about to fall asleep, Ralph speaks up.

"10 months we've been dating, my love." I look up at him. He looked excited. I go closer to his his and give him a kiss.

"Happy 10 months, love." He gives me a kiss now.
"Almost a year together.... I love you." He held my hand.

"I love you too."

"You know what that means?" I asked him, smirking.

"What does that mean?" He also smirked.

"It means...Halloween!" He rolled his eyes at me.

"Really?"

"Yeah I love Halloween, I thought you would be excited."

"I am. But you should really think about a ring on your finger, just on your hand casually. And then this white dress..."

"Mmm.? No. We'll think about that later, later."

"Okay, how long is 'later, later', is it a week? Month? Year? How long is 'later, later'?" He asked.

"Long enough for you."

"Babe, I hope you know I can't last another nearly a year without you being married to me."

"If you can't deal not being married to me, imagine how bad it would be if we weren't dating... I don't think you would survive."

"Me neither. Good thing you fell in love with my charms."

"Righttt. Totally wasn't your looks." He gave me a death stare.
"Kidding, I fallen in love with everything you have about you."

We both fallen asleep, as in a couple of hours we would be awake. I guess this would be a test to see if we were good parents, we'd be with her a week. Unless she wants to go home. We would take her back, but we would have to head home. I think the 'bad' in this is that we would know what it feels like to be parents. Granted, no one is prepared to be a parent, until the have a kid before another. But this would let us know how it is all the time.
I mean, yeah I want to be a mom. And yeah, Ralph wants to have kids too, and be a father, but it's an everyday thing. I can't ask someone to babysit, I can't be leaving for my job, nor Ralph. If anything I know how that feels. It starts feeling lonely. And when it's one kid they're going to get lonelier. I can't be like my family and say lock the door and don't answer it to nobody. At any age, it's scary. You're paranoid. All. The. Time.
And don't even get me started on newborns. They need the most attention. And that's when they grow at an incredibly fast rate. You look at them and then boom! They're already walking. Babies make me too emotional, even worse if it's my own.
Ralph makes me want to have a kid, but if I didn't have common sense then a kid would be in my tummy already. Ralph doesn't understand the consequences of having a kid. Especially this young! You know how heart broken laiklyn would be if we had a kid? She loves Ralph so much. It's too wholesome. Too cute. It'd hurt me on how jealous she'd be. Too jealous. Ralph wouldn't even know the damage that he would do to her. Too bad.
I mean Ralph better know what he's doing if he wants to have kids with me. He's too good with kids. Well now, at least.
Ralph wants to marry me. I simply don't know how to respond but early today, or technically yesterday, he almost made me say yes with his mother's engagement ring. I mean it was gorgeous. Really one of a kind. So unique. I've never seen anything like it. And then earlier tonight, he talked about marriage so calmly and easily. Who does that so easy? It's marriage. You should be stress about marriage. Not talking about it like it's candy.
Gosh, he wants to have kids right now. Doesn't want to wait. We have a movie we're going to be auditioning for and he wants kids? Now? Don't get me wrong I love kids and would love to have kids with Ralph as well, but right now? It would be good for publicity, seeing many people are in love with Ralph too. I mean all teenagers are. I'm surprised I didn't get to much hate for it. In fact, I got lots of compliments about our relationship. Lots of nice people. Ralph's friends are real sweet. It's as if they love me. I see Ralph's friends as brothers if I'm being completely honest. Howell is like a little brother. He's so much younger than me. He's quite the lady's man as well, all of them are. Lots of girls are in love with the cast.
That reminds me of my brother's girlfriend. She really tried flirting with Ralph awhile back. I can tell Ralph was really uncomfortable. But she shouldn't have done that at all. She still sees me as an ugly little kid. When in fact, I'm different now. I'm not a little kid anymore, I'm not ugly anymore. But there's one thing I never was for her.
Unsuccessful.
I was always more successful than her, even at a younger age. I'm even more successful now. That's one thing I've always promised for myself. That I would be more successful than anyone in my family. I'll have real love.
A real job.
A real husband.
A real life.
A real everything.
Nothing
Will
Ever
Stop
That
From
Me.
Ever.
Again.

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