In love with my bully a.k.a Carter Reynolds

HOSPITAL

CHRISSY POV

Everything hurts.My back feels like it's on fire.I can't breathe,it's like someone is sucking the air out of my lungs.All I hear is a man calling me slut,cheap,worthless.I also hear Carter yelling at his step dad to stop but he doesn't. My vision is blurry."Dad stop".
"Why"?

"I love her ".Those were the last words I hear before I pass out

CARTERS POV

She looks lifeless.The police took Will after I told him that he hit Chrissy with a belt over and over again.Oh God I was scared.All I could do was yell hoping one of the neighbors would hear.I would've moved but I was frozen in fear.I hold Chrissy's hand.This is all my fault.If I haven't been such a bully she wouldn't have hurt herself and run to me.Speaking of that,why did she come to me?Ive been such an ass to her since junior year to senior year(now).I don't deserve her or,anyone.My phone buzzes taking me out of my thoughts.I leave the room not wanting to wake her up and pick the phone up.

"Hello"?
"Hey sexy where you've been"?Shit!Alyssa is my sorta fake girlfriend who I just used for popularity.

"Um my family member is in the hospital so I decided to see her".

"Oh but this was our weekend alone".

"Alyssa"?
"Yes Carter"?

"Leave me alone".I say hanging up the phone.

"Carter!CARTER"!I hear Chrissy yell.I quickly run to her room.I walk over to her and wrap her in my arms."Shh,baby your okay I'm hear.Did you have a bad dream"?

"Yah,ow"!She touches her back.Her breathing gets heavy and looks pale."You have to go through that everyday"?She say more as a statement than a question.I look away then look into her eyes."Chris,we can't be friends".

"What.No you can't,don't say that!Carter no"!She try's to get up but I push her gently back down."Carter please,don't,I love you".She is not gonna give up.I hate to say this but she has to let me go."I hate you!Don't you get that!All those times I said I loved you I never meant it!I hurt you cause I don't like you!You should just keep cutting yourself cause things are never gonna get better!You know why your dad died?Well I can tell you it's not because of another car,BUT TO GET AWAY FROM YOU"!She looks in shock."OUT!I HATE YOU GET OUT"!I run.I don't even know where,I just want to run.

CHRSSYS POV

I hate him.I unplug myself from the I.V and go into my bag.When I have what I want in my bag I lock myself in the bathroom.I go over the sink and cut.The blood drips down into the sink.I throw the blade into the ground.I fall to my knees and hug them.I rock back and forward, and repeat"I hate him,I hate him,I hate him".How could I think this could work.He is a bully.MY bully.How do I hate him?Ive never did before,so how can I hate him now.Oh my gosh I can't.I hear a knock at my door."Carter get out"!

"Listen I know I hate you and shit but I want to kiss you one more time"."No-".Before I even finish a word,his soft lips crash into mine.He pins me up against the bathroom wall and lift my hands up,intertwining his fingers with mine.He bites down on my lower lip."Carter".I wrap my legs around him and without breaking the kiss..The last thing he says after we're done is,"That was the best last kiss I've ever had".

After Carter leaves I think about what just happened.It was Amazing...no! I can't think that anymore.Why did I not push away when he kissed me..My back was hurting so I popped some pills into my mouth.My back,and wrist hurt.Soon my eyelids get heavy and sleep consumes me.