In love with my bully a.k.a Carter Reynolds

Mom

"I'm scared".I tell Carter on the way to my hospital room.Today is my first day of kemo...yay!to be honest I hear that it hurts,like a lot.Carter takes my hand in his."Just focus on the time we made out".He tells me."What the heck Carter?How Is that supposed to help."?
"So you can remember how if felt and not remembering the pain your about to go through".He starts laughing to point where he can't even breathe."Omg shut up"!I say nudging him in his side."It's true tho.You really wanted the di-".I slap him."CARTER REYNOLDS THIS DISCUSSION IS OVER"!I yell.He looks at me in shock then realizes how nervous I actually am.Im shaking a lot.He kisses me.I love his kisses.
" Baby,just remember I love you,and that when this is all over we're going to get married!Its all UP hill from here okay"?Oh god I love him.I hug him."Mrs.Reynolds"?I look up the doctor terrified."I will lead both of you to the therapy section".I hold on to Carter like a child griping on to her father at a freak show.He rubs my back which send chills down my spine."Okay just take a seat here while I tell you a few things".He gestures to a hospital bed.While he is hooking up the kemo he talks."One:Close your eyes".I do as told."Two:If you faint don't be scared".Okay,thanks for the heads up?"Three:It hurts a lot".He says jokingly."But really three:Think of a happy thought".Okay got it."Do you have it"?I nod."Three,two,one".As soon as the needle goes inside me my head starts pounding like it's going to explode,I can feel in going through my veins burning my blood.Within a few seconds,I faint.

FLASHBACK2007

"Carter Im scared".I admit to him in the bus.Its our first day of middle school.He takes my head into his."At least we are scared together".Oh god I love him.Wait.Hold up.Rewind that please.Did I just say I loved Carter.No stop it!"OFF THE BUS".The bus driver yells snapping out of my thoughts.Carter walks into the school still holding my hand.

"Did your mom plan for us to have our lockers next to us and have every single class together"?I ask Carter."Well we have been best friends since pre-k so I'm gonna go with yes".We laugh.

8th GRADE 2009

"Truth or dare"?Bri ask me.Carter and I invited our friends over.For me that was only Bri and my sister Kerry.Carter brought his friends Cam,Nash,Hayes,Aaron, Jack J, Jack G,Taylor,and his best friend Matthew."Dare".I say.Matt whispers something in her ear then she speaks."I dare you to kiss Carter".My heart stops beating.I love Carter.He Shrugs his shoulders then walks get to me and just kisses me,with his toung.Oh god.I just sink into him.

CARTER POV 2009
I'm kissing her and she loves it.I can feel her heart beating fast.She Loves me.She starts to touch my back. No,no,no,NO.Move her hands to my chest.I pull away."I hope we can kiss again...one day".

CHRISSY POV 2009

He walks over to his friends and they whisper something at him.He looks pale."She is a total fuck girl".Carter tells his friends.My sister gets up."What did you just say"?"I said your sister just want sex".

CARTER POV 2009

Wtf am I doing?Never mind I know why.Its because I'm afraid of being loved so I hurt them...thanks step dad."I do not.Carter why are saying this stuff.Your hurting my feelings".She gets up."Slut,whore,fuck girl,they are all words that everybody has been scared to say but not me.Also we never Where friends and we NEVER will be".I say before me and the boys leave."Your now part of Magcon".Magcon is a meet and greet.My friends and I are pretty known so we can make hella money of off this.Yet something just doesn't feel right. Cam tells me."To be honest I didn't think he would do it".Hayes says."Who else is going."Oh yah his name is SHAWN Mendes and he can sing pretty darn good".Aaron tells me."Dude it's about time someone called her a sl-".Nash starts."SHUT UP!Just stop talking about it okay".And with that...we go to Taco Bell.Oh Come on don't be like that.You know how good Taco Bell is.✌️

CHRISSY POV 2009

I stand there broken."That asshole"!Bri yells!Kerry wrapped her arms around me.I haven't stopped crying."He was my best friend".

NOW 2015

"ugh".I say waking up.When the doctor told me to think of a memory I thought of the day Carter kissed me when we used to be friends along time ago.Thats so weird...I was seeing things that Carter saw that I couldn't see.

KERRYS POV
Your welcome sis😘😔😊

CHRISSSY POV

"Kerry"?
"More like Carter and the Doctor"?Carter says smiling."Am I bald and ugly yet"?I ask Carter smiling."Oh speaking of that".The doctor starts."Your hair is going to start falling out so don't freak out okay".I just nod.How I supposed to be okay with being bald at 19.Also the fact the I have fans that will see me like this?

I take a shower and let the water hit my back.It kind of bothers me that Carter bullied me that time just for Magcon,which is now done with.I know why he didn't stop,I should just forget about since it happened such a long time ago.
When I get of the shower I have a lot of tangles in my hair.I get my brush and comb my hair once and about 5 clumps of hair comes out.My heart starts beating fast.I put my brush down and comb my fingers through my hair.Im gonna break,I'm gonna break...I'm breaking.I start to pull all my hair out,which wasn't a struggle."Babe a brought you something".Oh no Carter!I can't let him see me like this.He loves me,He loves me,I repeat to myself while walking into the living room.He puts a SnapBack with Minnie Mouse on it on my head."Beautiful".He says looking at me."Carter I have no hair!How can anyone think I'm beautiful"?He puts his arm around me."Think of it as a test for your fans.Real fans will love you with,or without hair.I love you no matter what happens.I made that promise to you when I put that ring on you".He says pointing to my engagement ring."And when we get married those vows will stick with me even after I die".
"So what else did you get me"?I ask breaking the depressing mood.He takes a lot of snap backs out of the bag,some have words,some have pictures.No matter what they have on them they're beautiful."I thought about what the doc said and I thought if,well now that you lost your hair you would like wearing these"?He cares."Thank you Carter".

"So what were you dreaming about?What was your thought when you fainted"?Oh no!Just tell him."For magcon?Really Carter"?Im feel fire going through my veins,rage."What are y-"?
"You bullied me for magcon!The last time in 8th grade that we kissed you broke me for magcon"?"Really?I was in the 8th grade!I was stupid!Why are you bringing this up"?I cool down.I feel pale.Carter hold my arm up for support.Our attention goes to the phone ringing."Hello?Yes this is him.Oh my god"!Carter says tearing up.I snatch the phone from Carter."Hello"?
"Yes Mrs.Reynolds"?
"This is her".
"Your mom was in a car crash.It seemed that she was drinking and driving.Im sorry".

3 months later

Carter and decided to visit my moms grave.I wore a black shirt a black SnapBack that had swag in gold letters,jeans,and black vans.She was drunk.Oh god I miss her.Carter takes his hand in mine."Carter one day that's going to be me"."Babe stop-".
"No.We need to face the fact that I'm gonna die sooner than you.Hopefully my cancer can not be a Biatch for our wedding next month but if it is then I'm going to die.I faced the fact and you need to face it too,and when I die don't be sad,be happy.Baby can you promise me that"?He kisses me softly."I promise".

"She needed me.Why didn't she tell me she needed me.Why did I leave her"?
"Baby stop blaming yourself for it.She loves you".

MOM POV DAY OF ACCIDENT

I take the bottle and get in the car.My daughter is leaving.She is getting married.I am all alone again.I start driving.I try opening. The bottle in the car but fail."Stupid bottle-".I ran thorough a red light and hit a car.I spin and go through the glass window.Everything goes black.

Everything is black.When I look behind me I see a mirror with a note on it:
You are forgiven-God

God?I take the paper off the glass and look at myself.I look 16 and perfect.Im wearing a white long dress and sandals.I have wings.I HAVE WINGS!I laugh."Mom"?I look behind me to see kerry."Kerry"?She flys over to me and hugs me.So I am dead.I hug her tightly back."I love you mom"."I love you daughter".