Forelsket [{V.H}]

43

7:43 pm

June

Taking Vinnie grocery shopping was not a good idea.

He literally has asked me like twenty times what I'm looking at, like he's taking note of everything. So I started doing the same to him which turned into the two of us playing the quiet game.

But the game ended up lasting longer than just grabbing some groceries, we got back to my place still in complete silence. I put away the things I bought while he helped me but I'm slowly going crazy.

Vinnie sits beside me on the bed, scrolling through tik tok while I sit next to him, silently staring into space, waiting for him to talk to me again but I'm almost seriously itching.

But I ain't no bitch. He has to talk to me first.

I push his phone out of his hand, and crawl onto his lap, straddling him but he doesn't look at me, he leans his head back and yawns.

I take his face into my hands and tilt his head forward. He locks eyes with me and bites his top lip. He tries to turn his head away from me but I keep my grip on him, forcing him to keep looking at me... until he closes his eyes, pressing his lips into a line to stop himself from laughing.

Fine. I'll be outrageous.

I stand up and jump off the bed with a bounce. I leave my bedroom, tying my hair up out of my face. I walk out of my home, the sun setting warmly, lighting the sky in a red and orange hue.

I stop when I see the sky, painted in pastels that remind me of him and stare with the growing feeling of something warm.

Exactly his color.

I feel his presence behind me and without looking, I walk out of my door frame and down the side walk over to my car. I stand in front of it, seeing his reflection behind me on the shine, and raise my foot. I hop onto the hood of my car, Vinnie immediately yelling at me.

"JUNI GET THE HELL OFF!" He reaches for my hand but I climb up the wind shield and stand up on top of my car, my arms out at my sides.

"I WIN!" I tell out into the sky, laughing to myself. I look down at Vinnie and point at him, "Take that Hacker."

He puts his hands on his hips, smiling while shaking his head at me. "Okay you win- now please get off your car. I think you're going to make my nose bleed." He squints an eye at me but instead I hold my hand out to him.

I'm pretty sure that was an anime reference.

"My car will be fine." I tell him as I sit down on the top of it.

He visibly weighs his options, and then sighs heavily. "Fine but if my fat ass breaks your car I'm killing myself."

"Vinnie!" I scold him as he climbs up the hood of my car and up over my windshield to sit beside me, our feet on the glass.

My eyes go up to the sky, the warmth of the evening and the view calming to my soul.

I lay back against my car, my hands on my tummy. Vinnie does the same, laying down silently to stare up at the soft sky.

I'd rather stare at this than a starry night any day.

I lift my arm, extending my pinky finger out to him from above and he hooks his with mine.  I lay our hands Between us and chew on my bottom lip.

"You get me to do the most random things." Vinnie quietly says, "I feel like I'm living for the first time when I'm with you."

I turn my head towards him, him doing the same. "Me too."

His eyes flicker from my eyes to my lips, "So much for cancer males being pieces of shit huh?"

I break into a smile, rolling my eyes playfully at him, "Thats still Up for debate."

"Oh yea?" He looks away from me, "Well you're a Scorpio so... youre worse."

I scoff and look up at the clouds, "Ugh as if..."

We go quiet until Vinnie whispers, "We're the perfect match you know?"

"I know."

He swallows, and takes his hand away from mine to twist his rings around his fingers, "I hate thinking about the possibility of this not working out."

"I've been trying not to think about it." I leave my hand where he left it, hoping he'll take it again. "But if it happens... I want you to know that you can always call me or if you ever need anything... no matter how things go in the end. You can ask me, and I won't be upset that you did."

He lifts his hand and moves his hair off his forehead, "I know. You seem like the type of person to still pick up the phone even if it's someone who's fucked you over on the other end."

I wasn't always like that though. So I want to make up for it in any way I can.

Vinnie on the other hand- I feel like if something happened and I tried to reach out to him, he'd probably be too butt hurt to answer. Nothing against him- it's just cancer male things. (;

"How do you feel about soul mates?" Vinnie asks while playing with the rings on his fingers.

I furrow my brows at his question, "What do you mean?"

"Like do you believe in them?"

Do I? Ive never really thought about it. Love is something that hasn't come easy in my life, so I haven't really given the opportunity much thought. Yea, there's that wonder if someone's out there that Was meant for me but am I really that special that I could have someone that I was meant for. No one deserves the strain of being my partner, and I know it's draining but...

When I look at him...

"Yea." I nod my head while looking at his side profile. "I think I do."

He smiles but doesn't move, "I think your mine."

I sit up and lean over him so instead of the sky, he looks at me. "Yikes, that's pretty shitty."

He gives me a dirty look while I move my hair out from our faces.

"How is that shitty?" He frowns deeply at me, his eyes narrowed. "I don't think it is."

I softly laugh and sit up off of him, "It's not shitty that you're my soul mate... I just wouldn't want to be stuck with me forever. That would suck."

Vinnie sits up beside me, and leans into me, "I know what you meant and I don't think that it's shitty."

I pull my legs up to my chest and wrap my arms around them, "I know you don't."

He rests the side of his head against my arm, his hand snaking around my bicep to hold onto me. "I put on a front you know?"

"I know." I spot a plane in the sky, my eyes watching the Chemtrails that exit the back of it. "I see it sometimes."

He chuckles, his hand slipping down my arm to my hand to hold onto it. "If you notice that I'm unhappy after a month of knowing me, and it's taken my parents and family 18 years to, I think we'll be alright."

His words make me look at him, and he looks back at me, giving me a small smile that warms me just like the sunset.

I lean down and kiss him softly, my hand holding his face and he sits up to deepen the kiss.

We will be alright.