Open My Eyes (PunzNap)

Chapter 2: Overwhelmed

Sapnap was definitely confused. Why did his cheeks feel warmer all of a sudden? He brushed off the feeling with a laugh and the only normal response he could muster up was "Yeah you wish"

    After that things seemed to continue on as they usually would. The games were going fine, Sapnap could be getting more kills but they were winning most of their games. Punz kept making fun of him, asking why he was so bad, that he was requesting a replacement for him. Sapnap just laughed it off. 'You couldn't find anyone else willing to put up with your dumb ass' was what Sapnap said back, obviously a joke. Obviously because they joke around like this all the time. That wasn't what started the issue.

    Sapnaps phone vibrated. A text from Dream: 'Hey, George had to go do something for a few hours, want to do something until then?' That made Sapnap angry- no that wasn't the right word- upset maybe? All Sapnap really knew was that he felt like shit. Suddenly Dream only seemed to care about him when George wasn't around. He felt like a second choice, like he wasn't really cared about. He knew most of this was in his head, he was making a big deal out of nothing but he couldn't help it. It'd be nice if for once, Dream or George asked him to hang simply because they wanted to spend time with him, because that's what friends do. Sapnap told Dream he was busy so he couldn't hang out. He took a deep breath and tried to move on. He needed to refocus on the game anyway. He knew later on he would feel stupid for getting so upset so there was no point in reacting negatively now. Easier said than done it seems.

    Obviously he was slightly distracted, and he got killed on a tie breaker match and they lost the whole game.

    "Nice going Sapnap!" Punz said but it was clear he was kidding, he could barely hold in his laugh, he found it more amusing than anything else. It was just a game after all and the whole team's mistakes weren't just Sapnaps fault. He just figured he'd keep the competitive bit going.

    "Fuck off Punz, just shut up," Sapnap snapped suddenly. It was apparent he was upset and no longer joking. Sapnap wasn't actually upset with Punz; he just didn't know how to deal with his emotions right now. He slammed his hand against his desk. He was now mad at himself for yelling at Punz. Punz had been nothing but nice to him and this is how he acts back, maybe this is why his friends didn't want to hang with him. He sighed and rested his forehead down on his desk.

    "Alright chat, that's the stream for today, thanks for tuning in. Love you all, byeeee." Punz spoke more quietly than he normally does. Sapnap watched as the monitor with the stream on it changed to 'Offline'. It was quiet over their call for a couple minutes.

    "Hey Sap what's going on? You okay?" Punz's voice was so uncharacteristically soft that it made Sapnap want to cry, he couldn't quite say why though.

    Sapnap groaned, "Yeah sorry, it's just- I'm just tired I guess."

    "Okay let me try again, tell me what's wrong because you're upset about something. I won't stop asking, you know that." Punz stated more firmly.

    "I guess I'm just slightly annoyed that Dream and George don't ask me to hang out with them anymore. Dream only asks when George is busy, it's like I'm his back-up friend. I don't know, it's hard to explain. I know I'm overreacting about it but I can't help but feel like they don't really care about me. Now I'm annoyed at myself because I took it out on you, I'm sorry." Sapnap explained quickly, he felt dumb for even saying his feelings out loud.

    "Hey no, don't apologize. It's understandable, that would be upsetting to anyone." Punz kept his voice quiet still, "Have you talked to Dream about it?"

    "No, today was the first time it actually really upset me, normally I can forget about it and move on."

    "Well he probably doesn't even realize he's doing that. You know how he and George are right now. I know if he finds out he's upsetting you, even unintentionally, he'll be really mad at himself." The tone of Punz's voice was starting to bother Sapnap, whether it was in a good way or bad he wasn't sure.