Today I have a race against kai and 3 other person which is jackson,kun and lucas , I was just in the washroom when jennie entered she clearly doesn't expect me to be there
She cleared her throat and put on her make up which she rarely do when we where together
"You're beautiful without those you know" She looked at me through the mirror with disgust look
"What did I say about I hate a about you?" It hurts but I keep it in ,she doesn't mean it
I just smiled " stop smiling you're so weird "
"But you loved my smile before " I Mumbled but then I heard her put down her lipstick forcefully
"Can't you just stop you're so annoying" funny how you said you love my smile and my voice before
I looked at her and do the stupidest thing I did
I kissed her , she didn't move first but then I noticed she closed her eyes along with responding to my kiss but to didn't last long coz she pushed me and slapped me not once but twice
"How dare you kiss me !?"I touched my cheek
She used to kiss me before my game
"You used to ki-"
She cuts me off "stop saying stupid things like that , aren't you ashamed you're pushing yourself to me when I have someone else ,and could you stop saying thing about us coz clearly loving you was a mistake " my breath hitched ,I looked at her
"You don't mean that , take it back" she just rolled her eyes
"Listen here , I would never ever want you forget it , I'm not yours and I don't love you" it hurts I fucking clutched my fist and closed my eyes and my breath came out shaky
"I hope you know how much you loved me before , and how much I love you until now even if you're killing me slowly "
"I don't care if it kills you" that was the last thing she said before walking out the door
I looked at the mirror and I look like a fucking fool
I was so frustrated that I let my fist collide with the mirror , it draw blood but I felt numb i punched and punched till I felt tired
I fix my racing suit then went out to the field
I was putting on my helmet when I saw jennie putting helmet to kai
"Win this for me babe okay?" I heard kai giggled and I saw the most painful view ,they kissed , she looks so happy
"I'll be your wife soon lisa" I suddenly heard her promise , guess it well never happen now
"Alright , racers get in " we all get in ,our cars were aligned , I was so lost in my reverie and all I think about was jennie, how she's so happy without me
I was on the right side next to me was kai, next to him was lucas , and then kun at the left side was jackson
I looked on my side and saw kai chewing o his gum "you see that lis? I told you you're a no good loser" I clenched my fist on the when and I saw the flag indicating for as to start our engine
"I wanna see you hurt so much lisa , I wanna see you break watching your girl with me" I didn't mind him , I focused on the road looked on the side , I saw jennie looking at me but not with adoration , it was hatred I closed my eyes and then opened it on time that the flag has been lift up , we all drove fast but they weren't fast enough as me
Kai was behind me , I was blocking him for all I can so he can't go pass me then I remembered what jennie had said earlier
" I would never ever want you forget it , I'm not yours and I don't love you"
