Stay by my side || Chris Evans

Part 7

LILY'S POV

When he told me those words I bursted into tears. I knew he needed me more than ever this time.

All my tears wet his neck and chest and I try to rest my face on it, paying attention to all the tubes of course. His beat is steady but slow. It isn't the same beat that I used to hear when we danced in the living room with my heart layed on his chest.

It is a more of a suffering beat, the beat of someone who, if doesn't proceed with the operation, wouldn't have made it.

CHRIS' POV

I caress her hair while she's sobbing on my chest and, even if they are a mess, they are always the same soft hair I used to love to touch when we were at home, when we cuddled.

I miss those times, I miss her skin, her cuddles, her eyes. I miss her.

While we are in this position, with me still touching her hair, we both don't say a word out loud, but someone could've easily heard our toughts in our minds.

I'm thinking about all the things that I could've lost if I didn't allow the operation, all the pain and suffering I would bring to the hearts of all my loved ones. But mostly, I knew I could've lost the only person who matters, the only reason why I wake up everyday.

So I decided to allow the operation, even if that means to go back and forth from Atlanta for controls and, every couple of years, my heart needed to be replaced. I decided to allow it because the stakes were too high, I have too much to lose and nothing to gain.

I know that the operation would also mean staying in bed for months, it means getting used to a new engine that moves my body, but I also know that all the people who I love and who love me back would've helped me get through this.

LILY'S POV

We are both thinking and the room is quiet as it has never been probably.

I can't tell what he's thinking about. His eyes are staring at the cieling while his hand is going through my hair.

I'm thinking about us, about what we used to be, how our lives were perfect. We love each other, we have been together since highschool, we moved in together and both of our work lives are amazing. He's one of the most talented actors in the world, I'm the manager of a company. It seemed like we were in heaven but then, all of a sudden, one morning, our world fell into pieces and everything crushed.

Chris is getting weaker and, if the doctors don't hurry, he wouldn't make it.

I'm feeling the worst as ever, my head is burning, my eyes are asking for some rest and so all my muscles and bones.

Even if our bodies are suffering, we are miles away from home and our reality has been torn apart, the fate decided to still keep us together, our love's getting even stronger because of all this situation. He needs support, he wants me to stay by his side and I just ask for his presence, nothing else. Even in the worst period of our lives, our love is resilient and nothing can tear us apart.

Some time later

We are still in that position when someone knocks on the door. It's the same doctor who told me about the transplant.

"Mrs. Jones I have some news, please follow me outside. Don't worry Mr. Evans, she will be right back"

I smile at Chris and he winks at me. That asshole knows that I love when he does that.

I follow the doctor right outside the room and on my face there is nothing but terror. His face doesn't mean nothing good.

"Well, Mrs. Jones, we have been analyzing the givers in these last few days and we have to tell you something. All the results are negative, none of the hearts are compatible with the blood type of Mr. Evans. I'm sorry, there's nothing we can do."

In that moment the whole world crushed on me, but this time there's no chance to put the pieces back together. He literally told me that Chris is going to die. I would've lost the only person I've been able to love in my life. The only person I love a billion times more than myself.

CHRIS' POV

I hear someone fall on the floor and I am pretty sure it's Lily. The door of my room is made of demi-matte glass so I'm still able to see what's going on outside. I see her fall on her knees, with her face in her hands and I'm sure she is crying. The doctor didn't have any good news, as I suspected.

I have to stay calm, I can't allow myself to lose control again. Lily is already full of problems because of the doctors, she doesn't need to see also me suffering. If I had to, I would've prefered to suffer alone, but she doesn't have to see me.

She starts to scream and throw hands at the doctor and I think I have never seen Lily behave this way. I know she's the sweetest girl in the whole world, she's acting this way because she's mad. But not at the doctor or at me either.

She's mad at herself. I know her too well and I saw her this way many times in highschool but since we have been together she never suffered. All this situation isn't helping her at all because she has to carry all that responsibility on her own. For the first time, she has to walk without me.

I asked her to stay by my side and she promised me to, but I'm not able to stay by hers.

LILY'S POV

After beating the doctor up, some people took me away from him to help me calm down. I don't need to. I just need that doctor to do his job and save my lover's life and he isn't able to do that.

My face turned purple because of the anger and my hands are bleeding because of the punches I threw at the wall to not hit that asshole. If I touched him, I would've spent the rest of my days in jail with the accuse of murder.

While staying in isolation to calm down I keep thinking about how surreal all this situation is, but mostly I'm thinking about Chris.

I don't give a shit about me, but him. He would've died and I had to watch. I couldn't deal with that. There has to be another way to save him, even if it's the dumbest. I can't live with the remorse of haven't tried.

I pick up my phone and start to search on the web and I find something, something that could've turned the cards on the table.

I run out of my room, looking for the doctor I tried to kill five minutes ago. When I finally find him, with my heart in my throat, from all the way across the hallway I scream:

"I think I found a way!"

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