[the title- its not as sarcastic as it sounds aight-]
✧ LEVI'S POV ✧
how could i've been so stupid? was love this blinding? why did i even get my hopes up in the first place? of course the damn brat doesn't love me, he has that fucking ravenette. but i do feel bad for annie.. screw this cruel world. haha, i'm so naive.
"HEEEYY LEVIII! so how did it go??" just my luck, hanji. "where's eren?" armin poked his head from behind hanji, searching for the brunette. i stayed silent.
"levi?.. is everything alright?..." hanji's voice toned down.
"no, shitty glasses, nothing is alright" i snarled, earning a frightened gulp from armin.
"what h-happened up there..?" armin was still behind hanji.
i growled before i swung my head to lock eyes with armin. "oi, coconut, do you know a rather tall girl, inky eyes, jet-black hair, whitish complexion?"
"oh.. oh no... mikasa..?" armin's eyes were wide and fidgeting.
"yeah that's the bitch's name...."
hanji gently grabbed my hand but then roughly pulled me somewhere. armin's hands settled on my back and he started pushing me. "what do you shitheads intend to do now?" i barked. when i'm pissed, i don't care if i'm talking to my friends, my family, or even the most respected people in the world, i won't give a single flying shit about filtering my words. "come along, mama hanji will help you with your problems" hanji's soothing pitch didn't help. at. all.
all 3 of us sat down simultaneously, armin on my right side, and hanji on my left. they just stared at me, waiting for me to just let it all out. which, i wont do. "what?!" i hissed at them. "you can do it.. tell us" hanji rubbed my back. i was close to letting all my emotions flood out, but i kept the door shut, still trapping all my feelings. "what did eren do?..." armin's question was what broke my walls down. tears flowed down my face and it caught both hanji and armin off guard. "they kissed" i whispered, no one heard so hanji asked me to repeat what i said.
"i.. i left them alone.. well, me and annie left them alone.. a.. and when we came back, those two fuckers were kissing"
"oh my.. levi i'm so sorry..."
"pause real quick here, you mentioned 'annie'?"
"yes why?"
"oh.. nothing i just- yeah never mind.. wait a minute levi, did eren and mikasa bicker about anything?"
"i did hear them shouting about something i didn't really pay much attention to"
silence struck between us.
"i'm so pathetic. was i cursed to never be loved by anyone? in the span of only 2 fucking years i got left alone TWICE [levi died when he was 20 yo, so now in human years he's 22, resulting in 3 years of age difference with eren (who's 19, its noted in the desc)]."
"levi, no.. you're grea-"
"no no no, wait, am i doing something wrong? is it because i don't often show affection? is it because i come off as rude and cold? why is this un-fairness attacking me? what did i do to deserve this? am i really that crappy of a person? i feel like a moron. why heart is shattering into a million pieces and i don't even have one anymore"
"there, there, its okay, cry your eyes out. levi you are an extraordinary person, you deserve the whole world. don't ever think of yourself like this"
"but... is it just bad luck that.. i was abandoned more than once..?"
"those bastards aren't worthy of your love. you just haven't found the right person yet. i'm sure you'll get your happily ever after someday!"
"that sounds so childish what the hell" i couldn't resist to crack a smile at hanji's comment. they chuckled, glad that the mood has lightened up a bit. "besiiiiides, you have me and armin!" hanji pointed to a very quiet armin. "lost in your thoughts, arlert?" his body flinched a bit at my voice. "hah? oh- ah- sorry.. uhh levi if you don't mind me asking, was eren furious with mikasa in any way?"
i blinked at his question before giving my answer, "i... he did say something about a promise with her to not do anything romantic.. something along those lines. he seemed pretty livid after mikasa finally let him go"
"and did he kiss her back? or did he gave into the kiss?" armin's hands were doing all sorts of movement while asking me this.
"no.. i don't think so.. or at least i hope not. he was squirming while mikasa held him. he's trying to get out of her clutches i guess..."
"then, isn't that a great sign?" hanji blurted out, i gave them a bewildered look and they progressed, "that means he didn't enjoy anything, i'm guessing that kiss wasn't at his own free will"
"i'm not following..?" i was genuinely baffled. "its all on mikasa, eren didn't want whatever just happened to happen" hanji's words are often confounding but i can still understand.. most of it. "i bet any moment now he'll come, explain everything, apologize, and tell you that he still loves you!" i wanted to believe their little estimation but my trust issues were screaming to do the opposite. "oh i don't think s-"
"LEVI"
i was speechless, hanji was grinning from ear to ear, armin let out a sigh of relief and smiled enthusiastically. hanji pushed their glasses up and poked my arm,
"well well well, speak of the devil, here he is"
[LOLOLOL OK UH- no srsly i just want to say, since this chapter is about ranting, if y'all need to talk about something that's been bothering y'all so much then go for it. don't keep it in, it might explode at the wrong time. i'm always open for people who need to just get rid of that crippling fear of not being able to talk to anyone :) ALSO- i chose 3 years of age diff for ereri here just bcs 1. so its not 'illegal', 2. yk levi's age is uncertain and all we get is like 'early 30s' or '30s' or 'late 30s' so with that, i yeeted the number 0 and used the number 3, is that understandable??-]
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