kiss from a corpse ♡︎ereri/riren♡︎

₊˚๑ ༄ is this goodbye? or not?

[smol warning: weird attempt at making this chapter heartbreaking(???)]

✧ EREN'S POV ✧

i was very relieved that levi hadn't gone far yet, i'm still unfamiliar with this place. i slowly approached him but he backed away. everytime i made a step closer to him, he stepped farther. "wait.. please, let me explain..." i had both my hands up in defeat. "no.. no, i'm not ready yet..." levi muttered. "i.." no other words came out of my mouth, i just extended my hand, hoping levi would take it. he shook his head gingerly, his movements became quicker and he turned a corner, vanishing. "LEVI" naturally, my first instinct was to run after him. 

✧ ARMIN'S POV ✧

"i have a bad feeling about this...." i mumbled. "oh don't be so glum, arm-out!" hanji clowned, while wrapping their arm around my neck, squeezing me tight. "har-har, funny nickname there, glasses" 

✧ LEVI'S POV ✧

i sat down, crossed my legs, and let out a heavy sigh. i rested the left side of my face on my palm, my right hand's middle finger lazily pushed the keys which belonged to my piano in front of me. "you have a piano?" the fact that i recognized the voice made me curse to myself. i decided to keep my mouth shut. "you can play the piano?" now he's sitting right next to me, his hands awkwardly planted on his thighs. again, i didn't say shit. but my soft and needy side just wanted to hug him right then and there. 

he tensely put his fingers on some of the piano keys, one by one he pressed it. i furrowed my eyebrows. but as he continued on, his fingers elegantly played this spellbinding rhythm. i wanted to join but i feel like i should just let him be. eventually he was humming as well. his hums turned into words i can hear and understand. 

"in another life.. i would still choose you.. within a hundred lifetimes.. i'd always come find you.. in another life.. even after death.. with all that's left of me.. my heart will always beat for you.." 

wow, his voice is so angelic...

"i'm sorry, that was stupid" he laughed slightly and clasped his hands together. "no, no no, that was beautiful" fuck giving him the silent treatment, i couldn't help it. 

"you made that song?" 

"oh, no, i've heard the tune countless times from my mom and i just thought it would be perfect to sing to you so i added words" 

my god, this piece of shit is so precious???? what the actual fuck is this brat doing to me?

"i'm flattered" 

he cleared his throat and changed the subject, "levi.. i really really want to stay with you and i'm sorry you had to go through all that. but, i feel like you won't forgive me. so is that true? should i just.. leave you be?" damn it, its half true half not, but i have to soften my way of telling him that. "eren, i don't want us to part ways either, but it feels like i'm taking you away from someone else" 

"from mikasa?" 

"as much as i hate to admit it, yes" 

"but i don't even love mikasa that way and she has annie"

"its not only that, its... its just that, i think i should stop letting my past plague me forever"

he dug his hand into his pocket and pulled out something i couldn't see clearly. he took my hand and gave me the object. "i.. i can't accept this ring" 

"please? just as a reminder that... there's still one person in the world who gave you his heart" 

"jaeger...."

"you're probably sick of me, i'll just exit myself" 

before he left completely, he turned back to me and said through a smile, "it was a pleasure knowing you" 

FUCKING HELL

i hate myself even more now. why can't i just let it go? why do i have to be so tormented by my dumb trauma to the point where i have to let this slip. more importantly, why did i let that useless son of a bitch whom i like to call 'commander eyebrows' as an insult, to lead me to my death. if only i was still alive..

that's it. fuck everything. 

i'm giving this ring back to the brat so i can finally accept things in peace. 

✧ HANJI'S POV ✧

me and armin saw levi running past us but neither of us questioned it. "i can sense a happy ending here, bookworm!" i nudged armin's shoulder. "99% of the time, your senses lead to disaster but whatever you say, four eyes" armin can be shy at first but when you've known him long enough, he won't hesitate to be the monster he actually is. i just cackled at his 'critical attack to the heart' comment but deep down inside i legitimately kept praying and hoping this ends well. 

[FFS THE AMOUNT OF CRINGE AND SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT THIS CHAPTER POSSESSES I'M SORRY- but anyway just saying, i have no talent in writing lyrics so- ngl i just love the song and it somewhat fits this sooooo-]