kiss from a corpse ♡︎ereri/riren♡︎

₊˚๑ ༄ his reasons

[HAHAHSAGAHSHAHSJAJS ITS CLOSE TO FINISHED YES]

✧ LEVI'S POV ✧

my emotions are a mess. 

1. i'm angry that eren was stupid enough to do whatever the hell he just did. 

2. i'm relieved that eren was alright, that he still woke up. 

3. i'm happy that eren was still here with me. he didn't leave me just like that. i know, i know, i sound selfish as fuck but i couldn't help it, i'm just being honest for heaven's sake. 

4. i'm partially sad that eren's actions led to him leaving his whole life behind and turning into what i was. 

all of that was tucked, stuffed into me as its vessel which is definitely not very big in capacity. and no, i'm not talking about how excruciatingly short and small i am. i meant, i'm not very good with feelings. i ripped myself from my thoughts and quickly checked up on eren to see how he's taking all of this in. 

he stared at his arms in awe, scrutinizing every inch of it. he held them out straight, making grabby hands. some of his fingers are now just bones. the upper half of his left arm showing no signs of skin or flesh, same with the lower half of his right arm. he moved on to his face, rubbing his cheeks. i watched him.. lovingly, as he continued to analyse his body, faced filled with allure. 

"levi, this is great! this is miraculous! now we won't have to go our separate ways. we can be together. i can be with you and you can be with me" his words reminded me of why i was scolding him in the first place. "eren" i deadpanned, earning a twitch from eren's body. "eren, amour, do you not understand what's happening right now?" 

fuck i didn't mean to call him that. 

i swear his eyes sparkled at the nickname. "you speak french?" he asked, god sometimes he's cute when he's like this but with our current circumstances, it just sounds odd to be asking that type of question. "eren, focus. you shouldn't have done that" 

"i did it because i want to" 

"but have you considered the consequences of your actions?" 

"i don't care about those" 

"eren, you were extremely lucky that both you and i were sent back to the land of the dead and not some unknown location. imagine if something really dire happened instead. what would you do? and don't you dare answer 'i don't know' because that wont solve anything" 

"aren't you happy i'm here?" 

that question punctured my heart. it felt like i was being stabbed. i'm not sure how to answer. one part of me wanted to tell him that i am very delighted he's in front of me, talking to me, and just being with me in general. but the other part wanted to tell him how ignorant and foolish he was for doing what he did. both sides were arguing in my mind. 

"eren, this is very serious, you won't be able to turn back into a human" 

"i have no problems with that" 

"do you really not care about the people you left behind? what about that mikasa girl, and annie? your parents?" 

"they're going to be fine" 

"what about-" 

"levi" his voice was cold and callous, i couldn't fathom why but i find it.. hot. snap out of it levi goddamn. he continued, "i don't want to wait for the next life, i don't have the patience for that" 

"but.." 

"i just want to be by your side, i want to shower you with affection, i want to be there FOR you, i want to make up for what happened to you before i came into the picture, i want you to feel loved, is that so wrong?" 

once more, his words seem to have this effect on me. it either perforates my heart or makes it skip a beat, probably beating in my chest, a thousand miles per hour. well, if i had a functioning heart in the first place. "you're.. you're doing all of this for me.. what have i ever done for you? what makes you so determined on making me happy?" 

"the fact that you set foot in my life was already enough. it felt like my world was just black and white before you came, and now you've colored it. you made me feel stuff i thought i would never experience. i personally don't think we met by accident, i think it was meant to be like that. i fell for you faster than i thought was humanly possible. i cherish every single bit of you. your drop-dead gorgeous eyes that i could stare at forever and never get bored, your overprotective-ness of me that makes me feel somewhat safe, your midget-like figure which i find endearing, your frozen cold stare that seemingly melts every time you see me or lock eyes with me" 

✧ EREN'S POV ✧

i stopped talking because of two reaons: 

1. i want levi to process what i had just said, i want him to fully understand it first. 

2. my hair is a mess. the neat ponytail levi made was now wrecked. i untied the ribbon and tried to make a new ponytail. which failed because i have never did my hair myself. mom always insisted on doing it for me. 

i closed my eyes in frustration and i felt the ribbon being taken out of my hands. i opened my eyes but didn't look behind me. someone, i'm guessing levi, gently gathered my hair and tied the ribbon around it, making sure no tiny strands of hair were pulled too hard. when he finished, he sat in front of me, staring into my eyes, not blinking. i raised an eyebrow but stared back anyways. he opened his mouth, "je t'aime" 

"wait, that means 'i love you', ri-" 

i was cut off by levi's icy but soft lips, pressing against mine. 

[these bitches finally kissed oh my lord- but i'm highkey surprised on how i managed to pull off this chapter lmaoaoao hope you lovelies enjoyed]