H a s h i r a ~

10

sooo this one shot doesn't have any connection to the first Aoi x Inosuke chapter I made.

this is the modern world and not the taisho period.

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Hopeless

"Sleeping is not allowed in this classroom! School isn't a place to nap miss!"

I closed my fist as the whole class looked at me. I see pity in their eyes and I don't like it. I don't want people to pity me.

I stand up and walked outside the classroom. Miss. Adebra is still glaring at me but I don't give a damn.

I slammed the door before running away. I heard Miss. Adebra's loud scream so I ran faster.

I'd rather be in the detention room than to be in her stupid class. I couldn't learn anything from her as she's just talking about her life experiences.

Like I care about her damned life.

My life is already fucked up to care about others.

I stopped running when I heard a moan behind the building. I'm not the type of girl who spy but this one got me curious.

I'm used to see students making out and kissing but sometimes I couldn't help but to feel a second hand embarrassment.

I hid behind a tree and watched two people kissing aggressively. I see a girl with long hair on top of a male who's hands are wondering the girl's body.

I was about to walk away when he girl moaned the male's name. "Hmm Inosuke. Your so good at this. "

I felt a knife stabbed my heart as a tear escaped from my eye. I put my hands at my mouth to cover my sob not wanting to get caught.

I shouldn't be surprised to see this but I couldn't help but to feel the pain.

"Oh! Yes! Right there! Yes! "

I covered my ears while crying silently. I don't want to hear it. I don't want to see it. I don't want this pain yet I couldn't bring myself to ran away.

I want to leave this place but I can't. Every minute is like hell to me as I continued to listen to the girl's moans.

C'mon Aoi! Leave this place! Forget about him! Throw away your feelings and for once love your damn self!

I fell to the ground still weeping. I can't... I'm so fucking inlove with him I don't know how to forget him. I always see this scene but I can't get used to it.

Inosuke loves playing with girls. I love him. He knows it. I turn my eyes back to them nd my eyes winded when he's staring at me intensely while showering the girl with kisses.

He was looking at my eyes while kissing the girl. I can't look my eyes away from his raging eyes.

I sobbed more when a smirk plastered in his place. He pushed the girl away.

The girl looked at him confused. She wants more..

I gasped when he slapped the girl hard. The girl ran away shivering. What the hell happened?!

I shaked in fear when I saw him walking towards me. I ran away horrified.

My heart dropped when I turn around and he's chasing me. Extreme fear enveloped my heart as I tried my best to ran away faster.

I couldn't afford to get caught. I don't want to get caught. I'm scared. I'm terrified.

I screamed when he grabbed my arm and forcely lift me. I tried to fight back but he just caught my arm and hold at it so tight.

He pushed me to the ground and kissed me roughly.

Please stop

I cried realizing I couldn't do anything. I cried so hard letting out the pain I kept all this time.

My head hurts but I don't care anymore.

He stopped kissing me then glared at me fiercely. "Isn't this what you wanted? " He growled in front of my face and I closed my eyes.

I don't want this. I want him to kiss me passionately, filled with love. I want him to feel my lips while hugging me tight under the sunset with a very romantic view with just the two of us.

I want him to kiss me with care and affection. Not like this. "Stop the fucking drama Aoi! "

More tears flowed in my face. I'm tired. Please stop.

He angrily stand up the punched the nearest tree. I screamed when I see blood dripping out of his fist.

He looked at me and laughed sadistically. "What now huh? Your just gonna cry all the time? You know how I hate the drama Aoi! "

I closed my eyes still sobbing.

"Don't you liked it? I kissed you! You love me right? You should be happy right now!" He shouted.

I shook my head. "Please stop!"

He ran his fingers in his hair. "You told me to stay away right? So why are there? Huh? Why are you crying? Huh?! You fucking pushed me away! You shouldn't be crying when I kiss another girl! Your so confusing! "

I grabbed my hair and hurt myself. Yeah right! I pushed him away! I hurt him with my words! So why am I playing the victim role now?!

"Why do you confuse me so much babe? I'm torn. " He said with his tired eyes.

"I'm sorry. " Is all I could say. I pushed him way because I have to. He already have a fiance. We shouldn't be together.

I don't want to ruin his name to his family. I don't want to be the reason of his downfall. I can set aside my pain just so he could have a better life.

He got me pregnant.

He doesn't know yet. I'm not planning to tell him. He should marry the girl his mother found for him.

I'm a nobody so I don't deserve him.

If he knew about my pregnancy he'll turn his back from his family just for me and I don't like it.

"Run away with me babe. "

I looked at him shocked. "W-what?!"

He locked me in his arms. "Your the one who I love and not that bitch. "

I shook my head.

No! You don't have a future with me!

"I don't take no for answer babe. I will take you with me whether you like or you love it. "

A/N: Yey I did a thousand words! I promise to do more!

If you find this cringy then leave :)