Love And Science Mix (TadaHoney)

Conflict And Revelation

Honey Lemon's POV

So today I was all smiles, even though I had to walk alone because Dashi had to work late at the lab. I bought him a hot chocolate with extra cream and a strawberry crepe: his favorite breakfast. When I got to the lab, I saw that he was working with more force than usual: slamming things down and pushing things over. I went over to him, concerned.

"Hey dashi, I brought you something do you want it now or-"

I was cut off with a deadly stare from him

"Shut up, I don't want anything right now thank you very much. Don't you see I'm busy? Honestly..." He snarled

I took my hand off him, backing away slowly, tears coming to my eyes. He turned back slamming more things and throwing more stuff on the floor.

"Ok, I'll just.... get to work now...." I whisper, tears rolling onto my cheeks

I go to my work area and just broke apart. I know that he's been working hard and late but I just can't stand it when people get angry at me, especially when it's people who I've brought really close to me. The truth is, I have depression. I try to put on a smiley face and sweet disposition but, from time to time, I just feel really terrible. So much that people notice but I just reassure them that everything is fine. I used to be the kind who self-harmed and I still have the scars to prove it but I always hide them with cute cardigans and sweaters and no one knew. But ever since I took up chemistry, I felt better. I can concentrate, I feel happier and it makes me feel less sad. So when I got accepted, it was one of those moments where I truly felt happy because I could continue doing something I love to do... and then Tadashi came along and I thought it was all a dream, like I couldn't possibly be this happy. I know that relationships aren't all happy and fun times but I just can't help but feel like this whenever someone I let in acts like that. I know that he's works hard all night and probably hasn't even eaten or slept yet, but it just pierced my heart when he gave me that look, like I was someone who he didn't need.

"Get a grip honey, you can't let others see you like this" I told myself

So, slowly, I got up, dried my tears, and went to my work desk to continue my project.

An hour or so later, I heard a knock on the door and, surprise surprise, there stood Tadashi. I looked away, already trying to close the door.

"Honey..." he said

The door was almost closed when he stopped it with his hand. I started walking away from him

"Look, honey, I'm so sor-" I cut him off

"Tadashi, as much as I want to forgive you, I just need to be alone for a while ok?"

"Why? Just because I talk to you like that, you start acting like this?" He says, voice rising slightly

I sigh

"Tadashi, please just let me have time to myself..."

"NO. I'm not leaving until you tell me why you're acting like this." He demanded

I feel the anger rising up, trying to get out

"Jut leave me alone" I say, voice trembling

He rolls his eyes

"Oh great, just because I talk louder than I usually do your feelings are hurt this bad? You know, that's not a good thing to kee-"

Then I felt myself snap

"FINE! You want to know why I'm like this? Because I have depression! I can't stand it when people get mad at me like this, it makes me feel as though as if it's my fault and that I'm never going to be good enough for anyone! It's really rare that I let anyone in and when I met you, my mind changed. You know, I used to hurt myself because I hate myself, like it won't matter to anyone of I did and i still have the scars to remind myself that I'm just an ugly person who doesn't deserve to be loved! I don't even know how you stuck around with me for this long, I'm just a burden. Even if I act all sugary sweet, I feel the exact opposite on the inside and it's just so tiring to have to hide it all the time. I don't care if you think I'm overreacting, this is how I feel and the way you're acting right now isn't helping so just please, leave."

Tears were really falling fast now, and there were tears falling down tadashi's cheeks too.

"No, honey. I'm not leaving you alone like this."

Then he went up to me, took off my cardigan, looked at my wrists and began kissing the scars one by one while telling me something he liked about me .

"You're beautiful"

Kisses a scar

"You're one of the smartest people I know"

Kisses another scar

Now I was really crying hard

And this went on and on until he ran out of scars to kiss so he continued to say good things about me while kissing my salty lips.

"I love you and I'm never going to leave you alone, never forget that honey" he says, kissing me again

Then I totally collapse in his arms, letting out all the tears I still had in me but that's okay, because Tadashi was there the whole time, kissing me and stroking my hair.

"Honey?"

I look up to his eyes

"I love you, and nothing in the world can change my mind"

Then fresh tears come down not from sadness, but from being so happy not even a smile could express it

I KNOW I ASKED WHAT YOU GUYS WANTED FOR THIS CHAPTER BUT I THOUGHT OF THIS AND I WANTED TO TRY MY HAND AT WRITING FEELS SO PEASE LEAVE A COMMENT ABOUT THIS AND SORRY IF YOU'VE HEARD IT A THOUSAND TIMES BEFORE AND IF THIS WENT A BIT OVERBOARD. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS! PLEASE WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER