FORGIVENESS

Chapter 4

Amy was desperately trying to find a familiar face.

Nothing.

Only people staring at her,looking disappointed.

And there it is.She stops and all the image got blurry.
She could only hear screams and her own heartbeat,as watching her Sonic die.

And then,after the worst pain she ever felt,he opens his eyes.

"I can't believe you.YOU made me die here.You don't deserve to be alive after being such a horrible person!"

"No..No,Sonic!I just wanted-"

"YOU killed me!"he interrupted her and started screaming in agony.

She stood and desperately tried to find help,but guilt made her legs stop working and she fell down and shaking,saw him trying to stay alive until the last sigh.

And then she woke up.A nightmare,again.She dreamed about that every night.It kind of became normal for her.She started screaming and punching the air,and then realized it was all a dream.

"Man,I'm going crazy."she said and stood up.

She was all sweaty.She went to the kitchen and drank a glass of water.

"I can't do this anymore."
She said to herself and waited for a hand to ease her,but it didn't came.It didn't even exist.
"I have to do something."

She opened the door and went outside to take a break from reality.
She took a deep breath and looked at the moon.It was beautiful this night.Maybe better than yesterday.She used to go out after the nightmare and stare at the moon.It reminded her of him.Maybe that was the only thing that she had enough courage to watch that reminded her of him.

"This night you're even better."
The moon didn't even bother to respond.It was staring at the hopeless girl.
"Did you take him away from me?"she asked once again,hoping for a response.
"You were there when he left me all alone."
The moon seemed to share compassion with the sweet pink hedgehog.She had a pure soul.
"Why do I have to go through this?"she asked and started shaking.
"I really want a happy ending."
She sighed.Little that she knew that it was only the beginning,

She fell on her knees.

"I can't keep going,I can't keep going,I can't,I can't..."she repeated and fell on the ground.
"I won't give up.Or that's what my brain tells me to."
"I only talk to myself,I barely eat,why does it have to be me?Why?
In this big world,why me?"she started crying once again.

And then the history started again.She started running to Sonic's house and knocked at the door.

"Please,open the door.I know you can hear me.I know you're still here.All this shit I'm going though has to be a stupid joke.Am I right?Am I right?"

But,the one who opened the door wasn't Sonic.It wasn't the hedgehog that always had a very big smile every time he saw her.It wasn't the one who promised that he will never leave her alone.It was Shadow.

"Amy."he said and helped her stand up.
"Where is Sonic?"she asked.
Shadow sighed.He couldn't take it anymore.It was always the same.Every night,she would come and knock at the door and ask the exact same thing.He was now living in Sonic's house.

"Amy,you have to go.It's late."
"Where is Sonic?"she repeated,really calm.
"He...He isn't here now.Let me walk you home."
"But I want to see him!"she cried.

Shadow rolled his eyes.

"ITS NOT ONLY YOU,AMY!YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE SUFFERING!HOW CAN YOU BE SO SELFISH?ALL YOU DO IS MAKING THINGS HARDER."

She stared at him with tears falling down her cheeks.
Shadow immediately regretted yelling at her.It wasn't her fault.

"I'm sorry."he said.
"I'm selfish."she repeated.
"N-no,Amy!I was just-"
"No,it's okay.I know I'm selfish.I'm overreacting.Don't feel guilty.It's completely fine."

Shadow sighed.He should've keep his calm.He hoped she will come back to normal and accept that he was dead.It wasn't the same anymore.She used to be a completely different person.She was brave and strong,but now she was worse than a child.Shadow didn't know her personality,they never actually talked in the past.None of them was ever interested in talking to each other.Tails told Shadow about how she used to be.He accepted to help Sonic's friends just because he felt guilty about not stopping his death.That's all.He could've done it,but he didn't tell that to anyone.It was better this way.