Forever & Always (Forever & Always #1) (boyxboy)

The Adjustment Period

Our family helps us to heal. But family is not just the people who share our DNA. Family are those who care and love us. The heart is the most important thing in a family, not looks or blood. And so we creat our own uniqie families and in turn we are loved.

The doctor visited me the next afternoon. Noah and Grace were with me. Luke had not been able to take the time off so he and Grace agreed someone had to be there. She was a rather tall woman. Her silky black hair was pulled back into a bun and her calm gray eyes were kind. She wore a white lab coat and a pair of skinny jeans with a light pink blouse underneath the lab coat.

"What exactly is Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy?" I asked her when she finished her physical examination. Noah and Grace were standing in the corner watching on. I could see the concern in their eyes. Grace was especially pale. But the doctor just smiled and answered.

"Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy is a heart condition. In your case Mr. Sawyer it is a genetic heart condition. Basically the heart muscle becomes thick and slows the blood that flows to your heart. Yours was especially advanced. But luckily we were able to give you a transplant. You may still need a pacemaker. And you will be on medications for the rest of your life. But hopefully that will be a nice long life."

I looked over and saw Noah smiling. His teeth were showing and Grace got all the color back in her face. I stopped to think for a minute. "What will my limitations be?" I finally asked. I had a fair idea of what they would be. But I had to make sure.

The doctor smiled and said kindly. "Well, you will have to refrain from strenuous activity. But you will be able for day to day activities eventually. You will have to take it easy for a while. Sport is ruled out completely. I am guessing you would understand why. You might never be as active as you would have been, but you will get to live a fairly normal life"

She continued after a breath, she was fighting a smirk when she spoke again. "I've heard you want to get back to doing schoolwork. So I would say you would be able for work in about a week. Nothing too stressful and no school for a while. I would not see you going back for another four to five months. Maybe longer depending on your progress and how soon you adjust."

We both laughed when Noah released a long, annoyed sigh. Grace just rolled her eyes and the doctor turned to Noah and said. "You know Mr. Grabowski, you could be in school. Jesse is on the mend and he is awake. So I don't see why you shouldn't resume normal activities." She smirked at his horrified expression.

Noah looked over at me and I winked at him. He looked slightly relieved when he realized she was only messing with him. "Yeah well tough. My angel is here and I am not going anywhere without him at home and safe. So sorry to burst your bubble." He said slyly and sounded kind of pissed off considering.

He is so sweet. I just want to kiss him. I wonder would he be repulsed if he saw me naked. I still can't imagine him entering me without having a flashback. And if I have a flashback while he is in me what the hell will I do? I can't even think about him actually entering me. The pain would be unbearable.

"Could I ask you something doctor?" In a small quiet voice I asked and she turned to smile at me. "Of course Jesse. And please call me Dr. Shepard." Her voice was patient and kind not like I had expected a doctor would sound like. It made me question if she knew what I had on my mind. The look in her eyes told me she did.

Will she find me stupid? Will she say I don't need to see anyone. What if they think I'm a freak for asking. No. Stop. Noah loves you and he wants you to get better. And the only way that can happen is if you reach for help. So ask. Go ahead and ask.