Forever & Always (Forever & Always #1) (boyxboy)

A New Beginning

“The consequences of your denial will be with you for a lifetime and will be passed down to the next generations. Break your Silence on Abuse!”

- Patty Rase Hopson

The doctors and nurses bustled around me after I woke up. I coughed so hard I thought my guts would come up. My throat felt like I had swallowed nails. My chest throbbed and I felt like I had been sucker punched in the gut. Every part of me ached, and I was getting poked and prodded everywhere.

Doctors removed the breathing tube from my mouth. That hurt like a bitch and also made the coughing worse. But I was able to breath on my own. My body vibrated from the coughing and when I tried to sit up the sharp pain stopped me in my tracks.

But through all of the only thing that held my attention was Noah. His face showed pure joy and love. Nothing could have prepared me for that. Our eyes never broke apart while the doctor and nurses did their job. I could feel as tears threatened my eyes. I was alive! I was happy to be alive. And it was an amazing feeling.

He loves me, that's what I need to remember. The look on his face is what I need to remember. He loves me and I am home.

I could hear the doctors mutter to each other, they never spoke directly to me. That job was given to the nurses who always tried to get my attention. But nothing could shift my gaze from the beautiful boy that was in the room with me. The beautiful boy who loved me. I wanted to have those chocolate-brown eyes beside me again. To stare into them and loose myself.

The coughing started to easy a bit and I was pumped full of pain medication. I started to feel sleepy again, but I fought against it. I wanted to stay awake for my love. Even when my throat was sore enough to bring tears to my eyes, I didn't want to sleep. It was not what I wanted. It was not what I needed. I just needed to have my love back.

Just leave me alone with Noah. I just want my love to hold me now. I just want to feel his arms around me. His hands on me.

One doctor spoke very harshly to me and Luke snapped. The two men got very loud, but by this time I was too far gone. My body was numb and the coughing subsided. I was left clinging to reality. I fought against sleep. I wanted to speak to him.

Don't go to sleep. Stay awake. Just a little bit longer. That's all you need to do. Stay awake a little bit longer.

Unfortunately, I was not successful. But before I fell asleep I managed to recognise Noah's lips as he kissed my cheeks, forehead, nose and chin. I fell asleep with a huge smile on my face. The comfort of knowing Noah loved me guided me through my dreams as I fell into the second good sleep I had in years.

I woke up two days later. It started with Noah's scent enriching my senses. My eyes opened slowly. Too slowly for me. I wanted to see Noah. But my body was not co-operating with that request. But when I finally opened them I saw my beautiful love sleeping in a chair beside my bed.

His hair longer was longer than it had been. It was the way it had been. I loved him with hair, but without you could see every beautiful feature. I gave him a once over. He looked pale, which upset me greatly. I could see dark circles under his eyes and he looked older in a lot of ways. A single tear slipped down his cheek.

"Noah." I whispered in a scratchy, rough voice. I winced at the sound. I had never had a deep voice and that was just frightening. "Noah." I said again, this time loud enough for him to hear and he smiled.