The Challenge

The Photoshoot

What was wrong with me?

How could I ever think and even do something so shocking and crazy as this? How could I have actual feelings for Sebastian all over again?

I was so careful. I told myself not to be taken in by his charms like I did before. Besides, I was in love with Jason...or so I thought. Bottom line was that though.

I couldn't deny it but I was going to do whatever it took to hide it. I was so confused. I actually still have feelings for Jason but now another man was in my life that I gave a chance to be romantic with and he blew it.

Now, it was like nothing that happened before mattered anymore. The hate, the not show up date. It was all just a blurry memory to me and I was on the fence with whatever I was going to do. I was glad me and Sebastian were stopped. I had no idea what would've happened if we actually kissed. The idea was etching into my brain. I could see it and I didn't mind it at all.

This wasn't good. I had to do something to keep away from him like that.

We were just learning how to be friends let alone anything more. Yet...I was finding myself even now pondering what he was thinking about now. Shut up Lynn!

Just as I continued to run further into the area, turning back hoping to not see Sebastian near me right now in case he wanted to talk about what almost just happened, I faced forward and suddenly slammed into London dressed in her first shoot attire. An outfit that definitely spoke louder than words.

"Ow! Lexi! What is up with you?!" She yelled.

I stopped moving and shyly smiled. Just act natural. I could do this.

"Nothing's up! What makes you think something is up?!" I asked flustered. So much for natural.

"Uh, you're practically drowning in sweat. Ew, don't touch me." She said moving a little back.

"So! What shots are you on now?" I asked now curiously, blocking the question.

"Ugh none! They wanted to wait until that dipstick gets here. This is so not fair! I have to suffer now because he didn't want to show up on time!" She replied.

My eyes kept drifting away, daring not to make eye contact with her so she wouldn't suspect anything with my reaction of that dipstick who was about to get to know me in a intimate way.

Suddenly, I could feel from behind Sebastian entering inside and starting to get closer to us. London quickly grunted and looked his way as my whole froze while she glared and crossed her arms.

"Oh great! Look who's here guys! What happened Martinez? Did your kidnapper see how annoying you were really and fish you back out?" She quizzed him curtly.

Brushing against my shoulders, Sebastian continued to pass us not trying to make eye contact with me either but not leaving until he got off what was on his chest.

"Yeah but when I offered him you, he simply saw how you weren't even worth his time." He fired back to her icily.

Man, just hearing his voice now sent shivers down my spine and this time I knew why.

Walking away from us, I found myself still checking him out from behind definitely admiring what I was seeing but knowing how wrong I was seeing it now.

Why did he have to get into my head like this?

"He's just so mean to me." She uttered, shaking her head like she honestly didn't understand. "Come on, I need to look better than him so they can see how I could do these pictures alone. Where's my food?" She then asked.