Citrus Crush

Suffocate

Senpai didn't know what to do. He felt as lost as he did when he broke out of his game. All he wanted to do was crawl into his boyfriend's arms and bawl his eyes out.

He knew that wouldn't happen though.

He thought about staying with Lila but he knew that would only prolong the disaster he had to face eventually.

Walking up to his house. He stared, he had to go in. Maybe it would be best to just get this pain over with. Maybe Lem wouldn't even notice.

As he unlocked the door he heard movement from the kitchen.

"...Sen? Why are you home so early?" Lem appeared from the doorway confused. Sen couldn't look him in the face right now. Sen couldn't say anything either so he pushed Lem to the side and ran to the bathroom. As he locked it, he sank to the ground and put his head into his hands.

They felt different than usual. He looked down and saw that they were inhuman and sharp. He was losing his humanity.

He wondered how long he looked this way. Did he look this way while running away from Girlfriend? Did Lemon see him like this?

"Sen? What is wrong?" Lem said while giving a knock on the door.

Everything. Everything was wrong.

"Please leave me alone." He responded in a broken voice.

"Did I do something wrong?"

Of course, he thought it was his fault. He always did. He hated himself even more because of that. Lemon Demon didn't deserve any of this. He reached to unlock the door.

"Come in."

There was no point in hiding it. He had to face this.

Lem slowly walked in and stared at Sen on the ground. He looked surprised seeing that Sen wasn't human as well.

He crouched down next to him.

"Sen, what happened.." he stopped speaking suddenly. "You smell..."

All of sudden Sen felt his body get forcibly pinned to the ground. Lem's hands grabbed onto his neck and wrist, he shoved his face into his neck and breathed.

"What did you do?" Lem hissed, pulling away. "You stink of her and not in a good way."

"Lem please," he could barely breathe.

He felt the hands-on Lem's tighten more. Sen for the first time felt truly terrified.

"You cheated on me with her!"

As much as he wanted to, he couldn't even deny that fact. He felt his eyes water, and it wasn't even because of the pain. Any physical pain he had, couldn't compare to how ashamed he felt.

He clawed at the hands around his neck.

"I want to kill you so badly right now," Lem said, shaking with anger. "Out of anyone in this whole world it had to be her."

He felt a release from his neck.

"I don't know if you are worth it though."

"Lemon, I know I messed up so badly, please let me explain," he gasped out.

Lem just glared at him.

"She came around out of nowhere in the break room of my work."

"Wow, how classy you fucked her at your job."

"I didn't! Please, let me explain," Sen said.

Lemon responded by growling

"When I saw her my mind couldn't function, Lem. All I could see was her eyes staring into my soul." Sen sniffed. "She kissed me and I didn't pull away, but when she tried to go further I stopped her."

"You wanted her though."

"I don't want her..." Sen squeezed his eyes shut. Everything was hurting. "But I wanted her at that moment and I don't know why."

"You should stay with Lila for a while."

His eyes flew open. Lem was still shaking but his expression was unreadable.

"Lem I'm so..."

"No." Lem cut him off. "Leave, before I snap at you more and kill you."

Sen at this moment felt like dying could be better than the hurt he was feeling. He deserved this.

As he stood up, his legs felt shaky, he left without saying another word.