𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙪𝙙𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙨

𝙄𝙢 𝙖 𝙝𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙞𝙗𝙡𝙚 𝙝𝙪𝙨𝙗𝙖𝙣𝙙

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one month later...

"shut the fuck up" ariana said as i opened my mouth. instantly closing it looking at her in bed watching tv. "ba-" i went to talk as i got cut off again. "shut the fuck up" she said. what have i done now. when i tried to talk i saw her stomach move. she has the tendency to move to my voice when i get home from work.

i don't know why but it's cute. i took my suit jacket off putting it over the chair in the corner of the room. i looked at my phone and walked down stairs. walking into the kitchen looking for something to make for dinner. "hmm" i hummed as i got stuff out and making myself avo on toast with hollumi cheese. sitting down sighing i began to eat. fuck i'm a bad husband. i don't even know what i've done for her to want me to not talk.

i don't know if it's hormones or not but it seems like i've done something wrong. i'm gonna be a horrible dad if i don't even know what's upset my own wife. sighing, i put my head in my hands looking down at the half eaten plate of food. i sat there for a while. i finally got up leaving the plate there walking upstairs past own room down the hall. opening the next door. looking around the almost finished room for our baby girl. i smiled slightly as i looked around. "dam i can't wait to hold you in my arms" i said under my breathe. a smile appearing on my face.

after spending some time i walked back to our room seeing ariana in the same position she was before.i started unbuttoning my shirt as i walked into the bathroom. i took my clothes off getting in the shower. washing my hair and body. i honestly felt left out of my own wives life at the moment. she's been very distant for the last 2 weeks and i don't know how i feel about it.

i wanna give her space but i wanna love her and show her i do like i normally do but even a kiss is a stretch recently. let alone a word. i don't know if this happens during some people's pregnancy's but it fucking sucks, feeling like your just there. maybe i talk to her about it- no she will tell me to shut the fuck up again. i turned the shower off grabbing my towel wrapping it around my waist walking out grabbing sweatpants from the wardrobe. i fried myself off putting them on the. walking back putting my towel in the bathroom.her gaze not once leaving the tv.

i got in bed but stayed like meter away from her knowing she would tell me to move like she did the other day. so i stayed on the edge. grabbing my phone looking at my lock screen, which was ariana laying on top of me laughing. i smiled slightly as i opened my phone texting noah.
well he didn't even answer. he was probably busy. i sighed closing my phone. what the fuck is this shit day. i fucking over this.

i grabbed the remote from ariana hand as she finally looked at me... but it was and angry look as i paused the show. "what the fuck" she said trying to get the remote back. "i'll fucking shoot you" she said. "go ahead fucking shoot me least then i won't have to suffer in the corner feeling unloved" i spat out. ok maybe that accidentally came out. least it shut her up.

she looked away from me back at the tv that was still paused. then guilt hit me. "shit i'm sorry" i said as she looked at me. "i shouldn't have said that" i said. i gave her the remote back looking down. just another reason why i'm a bad husband. i heard the show keep playing as i got up walking out the room. i walked downstairs opening the door to the gym, not shutting it behind me.

now i was just angry at myself. my 15 year old self coming out again as i walked over to the punching bag. i'd rather punch people but this will have to do. punching the shit as hard as possible. sweat started dripping down my body as i let my anger out. "fuck" i said loudly falling to the ground laying like a star fish. "i'm such a bad husband" i said to myself. "not gonna be much of a father either" i said. "don't say that" i heard a voice. instantly jumping up putting my fists up.

seeing baba standing at the door. "what are you doing here" i said as he looked at me. "i was bored so i thought i'd come over" he said. "where's dad" i said. "he went out with jaden to somewhere" baba said. "right" i said as he walked over to me. "what's wrong" he said quietly pushing the strands of hair out my face. "i'm just overall a shitty person" i said looking down at him. "no you aren't" he said looking at me.

"i think your an amazing person. remember i've watched you grow up and trust me you've become an amazing husband to one of the most beautiful girls ever who changed you forever. trust me your dad was the same he thought he was gonna be a horrible father but he proved himself wrong countless times, you'll be an amazing dad blake. i know you will so don't beat yourself up over you being paranoid" baba said as i looked at him.

"how can you be so sure" i said slightly doubting him. "because you got all excited and cried when ariana told you she was pregnant" he whispered. how did he even know that. honestly she probably told him. "your gentle to the people you love. you've always been like that" he said. "you'll be a good dad" he said smiling. i didn't want to say anything, i didn't really know what to say. "now i'm going upstairs" he said smiling running upstairs. i sighed hearing me and arianas bedroom door shut.

"uh now i'm all fucking sweaty and need another shower" i said looking down at myself. i walked out and over to the kitchen grabbing the plate i left there before putting cling wrap over it so i could eat it later, putting it in the fridge getting cold water standing over the sink drinking it looking out at the view of the front yard in the almost darkness. sitting the empty glass in the dishwasher putting the rest of the dishes in. maybe she's pissed because i've been working all the time and not staying home every so often.

well i mean it friday so we have the week end. maybe i should plan something, take her away somewhere. i quickly pulled my phone out looking over the internet for anything, like absolutely anything. then i found myself booking plane tickets for 2 weeks...

to spain..