Fear Street Imagines

Another Love | Tommy Slater |

( Readers POV )

Warnings: Angst, starvation, sickness, isolation, weigh lose:(

Tommy x Fem!Reader

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I wanna take you somewhere so you know I care. But it's so cold and I don't know where. I brought you daffodils in a pretty string, but they won't flower like they did last spring.

I tried to act like I was ok. No one would notice anyway. He was my happy place. My safeness. My love. He moved on so quickly. He forgot about me. He forgot about everything we had. He left me, he went to her. He loved her more. He wanted her more. Did I do something wrong? I just wanted to be perfect for him, but nothing ever works. 

And I wanna kiss you, make you feel alright. I'm just so tired to share my nights. I wanna cry and I wanna love, but all my tears have been used up.

Too tired. I wanna love him, but he blocks me out. I wanna hug him, but he pushes me away. He hates me now, and I did nothing wrong. Is love a crime now? That's all I did was love him. Maybe I'm the crime. We'll never find out.

On another love, another love. All my tears used up, on another love, another love. All my tears have been used up, on another love, another love. All my tears have been used up.

Did I do something wrong? Why couldn't he love me. Everyone I become attached to always leaves. He left me. He said he liked her better, then left. It was me. Wasn't it?

And if somebody hurts you I wanna fight, but my hands been broken, one too many times. So I'll use my voice, I'll be so fucking rude. Words they always win, but I know I'll lose.

I feel like trash, sitting in bed all day, crying, starving myself. I haven't left my room since he broke up. I've become sick, I've become skinnier. I hope this will make him happy. I feel dead, but I'm still alive. It's all over a boy.

And I'd sing a song, that be just ours. But I sang 'em all to another heart. And I wanna cry, I wanna learn to love, but all my tears have been used up.

The song replays in my head. The one she sent to me. Saying, "This song reminds me of you too."  I cried after I listened to it. Another Love. It did remind me of our past relationship. My parents didn't once try to get me out of my room. My little sister did, but I shut her away. Just like he did with me. 

On another love, another love. All my tears have been used up, on another love, another love. All my tears have been used up, on another love, another love. All my tears have been used up.

I feel like it's all my fault, but it's not. I feel so empty, but so many emotions fill me. I feel sadness, but I barely feel. I wanna heal, but it takes longer than I thought. Let me heal.

I wanna sing a song, that'd be just ours. But I sang 'em all to another heart. And I wanna cry, I wanna fall in love. But all my tears have been used up.

Tears won't fall anymore. He seems happier with her. He seems less stressed. He seems  more touchy. He likes her more. I just have to deal with that. But the thought seems to never leave my mind.

On another love, another love. All my tears have been used up, on another love, another love. All my tears have been used up, on another love, another love. All my tears have been used up

I let myself go. I'm happier where I am. No more shitty parents, no more Tommy, no more Cindy, no more camp, no more pain. 

It feels like heaven.

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This made me cry a little ngl. Strong feelings in this chapter. I hope you guys enjoyed it tho:) I listened to the song when I typed it.

~Xoxo Rose.