➳ 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴 / [Kuroo x reader]

Chapter 21

LOL I DISAPPEARED FOR 2 MONTHS, im back :]  WELL, I'm writing a new story zzz'

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[Y/n's pov]

Everything's a mess, I'm actually okay now and what's not okay is my relationship with Kuroo. I feel embarrassed that for the past few months I pushed him away all because I didn't want to say anything in case he brings up things that happened. I don't want to talk about it because,, it causes a huge argument. And I know that we should be honest with each other and say what's on our minds but, I just can't be a burden. 

Should I say sorry? 

I paced around my room and tried to think of a surprise or some sort of apology for pushing him away this past few months. I know, isn't it so dumb that I'm pushing my best friend away? Do I even look at him as a best friend now? Crap. 

"Okay brain, let's sit down and think of a plan, please cooperate because I am not in the mood to cry about it all night."

An hour passed and my ass already hurts. Fine, let's be impulsive and do something like an impromptu thing but it's actually planned. So it's not impulsive then dumb fuck.

fuck it. I'll say sorry and whatever the outcome is, I won't take no for an answer.

I ran to Kuroo's house and knocked three times on his door because he might be sleeping and if I showed up unannounced after ignoring him, I look really stupid. But didn't I say I'll do whatever, THEN I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. 

I knocked a few more times before he answered the door.

"Y/n, what are you doing here?"

Ah, I feel like tearing up. I missed him so much. I can't move, my heart feels like it's exploding, are those grasshoppers in my tummy because I feel really jumpy right now but I can't move. What if he pushes me away if I hugged him all of a sudden? Right now, what I think and what I feel is not important, I'm listening to the grasshoppers in my tummy, I'm gonna hug him.

He stared at me and before he could say anything again, I hugged him tightly.

"Oh I missed this feeling, this feeling is...so calming" Kuroo slowly put his hands on my back and we stayed like that for 10 minutes. 

Okay now I can feel butterflies.