Coffee Love

Your true ability

My stomach rose with anticipation. We were meeting at an empty park, the mood was rather... Lonely. It looked as if it were painted by sadness and that the paintbrush had dabbed parts of light. There were trees that blocked the sunlight as it wasn't a sunny day, more dim.

The park was one of Ranpo's favorite places to go (if he could lay down and not do anything that is) which is why we agreed meeting there. I can see why he likes it - there's not too much light and it was just enough to actually play around in at most. It also seems like a nice picnic spot. There were benches near the paths and grass behind them, making it easier to relax.

"Eddie." I heard a small voice.

I looked back to see Ranpo with a small smile, "Ah, hello Ranpo. How's your day been today?" I asked him.

"It's been going good?" That wasn't as convincing, "Can we please sit on the benches?" He asked, I nodded.

We both took a seat on the same bench. There was a dreading silence, not one I was too familiar with. I usually get worried and anxious, but with Ranpo my physical affection really grew a lot more. For that last few minutes, I had already been playing with Ranpo's fingers as he watched. The look on his face wasn't that evident - but I could tell he was confused. Is it bad that I'm becoming bold? Atsushi said it would be good to he more forward about myself so...

"Ranpo, what is it that you have to tell me?" I asked. "You seem very cautious, please don't hide things from me, we've been friends for so long.. I understand we have our own privacy - but if it concerns me, then I'd rather have you tell me. I'm sorry." Maybe I was being to... To.. self-obsessed with myself. Maybe it isn't about me after all. Because, well, I doubt Ranpo would be one to hide.

The detective's eyes grew a little, he then smiled, "It's not as important, I'll tell you later. I may or may not have planned this little get together for you to be around me more." He looked away almost cautiously. "Now, let's take a walk!"

"I thought you hated walks?"

"I did?? Since when??"

"Last time we came when you bit me-"

"I was in a mood."

"Oh. Okay.."

We did have fun actually. Talking about nothing feels like everything in a sense. I was never fond of talking to others as much as Ranpo, he made me feel more comfortable. He made me feel alive in a way. I felt like the world would be better if we could just be together.. aha. I loved speaking to him about life. There were times where we went camping together and times we went to empty libraries. There were times we laughed and times we had fun.

Though sometimes we never did that anymore. It was like everything was changing. Like we changed. I don't know why we changed. I want to stay the same forever. I'm not ready for growth, I'm scared. I'm a scared shadow became reaching for the new is terrifying, I don't want misfortune arriving afterwards every single time. It was usually my fault, not whatever this luck was.

Talking to Ranpo almost felt like talking to a Martian. I mean that in the least offensive way because it's Ranpo. There were some times where he acted... almost not himself. There were times he didn't have that nice smile, or he would just stand. Not even move with me as we walked. It was like, he realised something.

And now, sometimes, I wished he didn't. It was never his fault. It couldn't have been. It was my fault for being so.. so jealous. My fault for just wishing to be better than others. My fault for all of that. It was my fault for getting upset, however, not blaming him (luckily) while looking upset. It was my fault for not comforting Ranpo when he thought he hurt me. It's my fault Ranpo was doing his best to help me. It was my fault I stayed drinking again. It was my fault I broke our promise.

Ranpo did not have an ability.