Good girl// 5sos

Chapter 1

My whole life I've had the responsibility of looking after Luke. Don't get me wrong I adore him, he's the best little brother, he's my best friend but it shouldn't be down to me to look after him. I'm his sister I'm only a year older and they should've had us if they don't want to look after us. I've been forced to grow up quickly, by the age of 6 I could cook basic meals for me, Luke, Jack and Ben to survive.

It's all gotten to much recently, school, home, everything. I can't take it anymore. I got my blade out of my bathroom cabinet and knelt on the floor in shorts and a vest top. I held out my arm seeing the scars of the past 2 years I cut 6 new ones then went to my left arm and cut 8 more. Blood poured on the floor mixing with my tears. I reached and grabbed a bottle of pills and swallowed a bunch, instantly regretting it when I heard Luke outside trying to get in. My eyes got heavier and heavier and Luke's voice got fainter and fainter till everything went black.

I flickered my eyes trying to adjust to the harsh light. I felt someone holding my hand and saw Luke his eyes red and puffy.

Me: "l-Luke?"

Luke: "ANNA!! Your awake!!"

Me: "how long?"

Luke: "nearly a month"

Me: "I'm sorry, I couldn't handle it anymore"

Luke: "don't be sorry, it's not your fault. Did I do-"

Luke got cut off by the doctor coming in. I could tell he was about to ask if he did something to make me do it which broke my heart, he could never.

Dr: "you are awake thought I heard voices. How you feeling?"

Me: "groggy"

Dr: "I'll let you get some sleep, we've already phoned your parents they seem pretty worried and are trying to get back as quickly as they can but their job isn't letting them"

Me: "okay, thanks"

Luke: "they aren't really trying to come back are they?"

Me: "no Luke they are not"

Luke: "well I'm here and I always be"

Me: "I know, I love you Luke"

Luke: "I love you too. Now get some sleep Ben and Jack are coming soon"

Me: "okay"

I spent the next few days in hospital just so they knew I was fine to go home. When I was in the hospital surprisingly I had a great time with Luke, Ben and Jack. My parents came back on the day they were meant to anyway and didn't even care that I tried to kill myself, I just ignored them like usual and focused on myself for once. They left just under a week later for a 'weekend away'.