INMATE

nineteen

after me and billie's argument she packed her stuff and told me she'd live with finneas 

we both had to sigh paperwork basically saying the care was given to finneas now

it's been two days 

two 

fucking

days

she hasn't called or anything 

i don't even know if we're together or not anymore

i've been going to therapy i just cant cope with everything its all too much

my mental has been shit 

i spend way too much time in the studio downstairs 

it reminds me of billie 

her and fin would work on songs for fun 

my phone rang as i walked over to the kitchen island to grab it 

"hello"

i said with no energy

"hey how are you doing"

claudia asked 

"just great"

i said sarcastically 

"how's billie"

i asked 

"she's.....an okay mess"

claudia said 

"does she really think i cheated on her"

i asked sighing 

"that's what she told me and fin"

she said 

"she got me fired"

i said quietly 

"i know...she says she regrets it but in the moment she was really upset"

she told me 

"why didn't she just talk to me i wouldn't cheat on her ever"

i told her 

"have you told her that"

claudia asked

"i've left 3 messages and 9 texts and she's not responding"

i sigh

claudia set her phone up pouting 

"i'm sorry i-"

she started 

"will you take me to get food from taco bell"

i heard billie ask as she looked up from her phone 

"yeah..gotta go"

claudia said as i nodded and waved bye

tonight i think has been the hardest night 

i sat on the couch just staring at the carpet

no sound no anything 

there was a knock on my door

probably my neighbors daughter asking to hang for a bit 

its cute she's 4 and she'll come over and we'll color or make food together 

I walk downstairs putting on a fake smile

"hey la-"

i stop to see claudia 

"oh hey"

i said 

"i stopped by to give you food"

she said as i smiled 

i looked past her to see billie in the car on her phone as i sighed 

"how are you"

she asked 

"terrible i've just been siting here"

i said honestly 

"you can always come over to my place"

she said 

"y-yeah but billie....i don't know where she got the idea i cheated on her i haven't"

she nodded and pouted 

"im sorry love....i'll try to talk to her about it"

she said to me

"did billie tell her that her and fin posted a song and it went viral"

claudia asked 

that made my heart break more 

she didn't even tell me that

"no she uhh she didn't"

i said nodding slowly 

"i'm happy for her though"

i smiled lightly

we both heard the car horn honk 

"can we fucking go"

billie yelled out as claudia held up her finger 

"thanks for the food"

i said 

"yeah of course just text me whenever"

she said as i nodded

"will do"

i said as she headed out

life is weird isn't it 

what would've given her the idea i cheated on her

filler chap cuz shits about to go down