Stupid Bunny. (Bakugo's Demise.)

✨Chapter 71✨ ⚠️TW⚠️

⚠️Mentions of Suicide and Self Harm⚠️

Awkwardly, you sat in your therapists office. Tapping your fingers nervously and glancing around the room for any cues.
"So, (Y/n). It's very nice to meet you. You can call me Shio."
She smiled, noticing your mild unease..
Or heavy unease. Whichever.
You tried to return the gesture, "Nice to meet you too."
You hadn't realized your fingers digging into the wooden arm rest your hands sat upon. Trying to carve what of your nails were left into it.
"So, I want to hear from you what's going on."
She had a notebook on her desk, jotting few words and notes down for remembrance purposes.
You had to think about what exactly that was. There was so much to unpack in an hour.
"You know, whatever you feel like getting out, do it. Doesn't matter what it is, we'll be meeting a lot so there's plenty of time for it all."

The only thing you could think of was, "Well, I'm afraid I'm-"
Immediately you paused before speaking again.
She waited patiently, hoping you'd continue.
"I'm afraid I'll hurt myself."

You didn't have much more than that rehearsed.. but it stood to reason.
She nodded, finding that was also something to write.
"Okay.. would you label the idea of harming yourself as an intrusive thought or something you genuinely want to do?"

That much thought was never put into it. You'd never delved into the world of these thoughts..
"Intrusive?" You questioned, not quite familiar with the term on a textbook level.

"Like, something that just pops into your head that you can't control."
She explained.

You continued fiddling with your hands out of nerves. "I mean... I think it's because I actually want too.. but I also feel like their just abrupt thoughts in response to fear."

That sounded like something to talk about. "Ooh, okay. Let's talk about that."
"You say fear, fear from what?"

"Well.." you wondered, "Ghosts.. and like- loud noises. Sometimes just a general fear."
You didn't have more to say than that, and she waited to see if you were done.

"And.. the response to the fear from that is to hurt yourself?"

You nodded, ashamed.

She didn't seem phased, countless patients come in saying they want to hurt themselves. It's nothing new.
"Alright."
"Have you done it?"

You were awkwardly awaiting that question. "Well- I stopped sometime around four months ago.."
These questions had you thinking more than anything.
That insinuated enough you'd really done it before.

"What made you stop?"
She wondered. Having enough questions for the two of you.

Oh what made you stop? What made you stop?
Wouldn't you like to tell her.
"Uhm.. my boyfriend."
Still a little weird to call him your boyfriend. Or even the fact you have a boyfriend at all.

She nodded, "Does he know?"

"Yeah.. Not until recently."
"That's- kind of why I'm here."

Your therapist found herself smiling again. "That really good."
"Are you two open with eachother?"

You seem to be the center of attention in the relationship.. completely unintentionally.
He'd cried Infront of you, but that was an in the moment scenario.. not some past trauma or mental health issue he has going on.
"Well.. Yes? I mean, I tell him a lot and he helps. But he doesn't really like talking about his feelings and that stuff."

Nodding seemed to be her go to.
"I see, I see.."
"I hate to ask the regular therapy questions, but how does that make you feel?"

"Worried, actually. I want to ask, and I probably should.. but I feel like he'd just say he's fine because he knows I'm going through it."
"Like-.. I am. And he probably thinks I couldn't handle it."
You seemed to be done, so she continued, "You say probably.. So you haven't tried?"
All you did was shake your head.
Shio wrote before putting it off to the side to focus on you.
"Okay, so we're dealing with some anxiety and some worry. You were talking about ghosts?"