One and only [Snames/Jeverus]

Chapter 17

WARNING:
CONVERSATION OF SELF HARM, DEPRESSION

"To tell you the truth, I should've seen this coming. I mean really, he is always like those stupid boys that pull girls hair when they don't know other way to express their feelings. You know what I mean?" Lucius look at Severus.

That is when he found out that Severus  is still in shock.

"Hello~ Earth to Snape. Anyone there?" Lucius whisper into his ear, and that  make Severus wake from his shock.

"I... I just never thought you would even ask me such a thing, especially after...you know..."Severus is getting really nervous at the time being. Never he would have thought Lucius would asked him this, in such a carefree state.

Maybe Lucius too found out that they aren't meant to be together. That must be why he didn't think that there is  something wrong with what he is talking about.

"I don't really think it is a big deal with this. For some reason, I think I know why you left in the first place and I want to give you some time to think and make sure if you are right about your thoughts, I know how much you value your privacy. That's why I didn't find you when you left. I hope you will figure it out yourself. Make it clear for you, you know," Lucius said softly, looking at his shoes like it is the most interesting thing in the world.

"I find it hard sometimes, I really do love you, but maybe it isn't romantically as I thought it should be. You know I don't have the most loving parents, I don't really know that, I feel like I want to protect you, kill whoever make you fall into tears. It actually change when I start develope a feeling after being with Cissa for a while. She didn't know thought, don't wanna tell her yet until I'm really sure about this."

"Oh Lucy,  you have to tell her she would be over the moon when she hear this. Nooo, I'm going to tell her right now. Yessss, you can't stop me for this, no you don't. I'll be your cupid this time." That's  when Sev is trying to run out and find Narcissa.(The keyword is trying:))

"No you don't, Mister. You have some explanation to do before you run out and shout my secret to everyone at the common room just to find her."Lucius  pull Severus back to his bed and make sure he couldn't jump up and ran out.

Severus is now 'locked' on his bed next to Lucius pouting.

"Come on now, don't kept me waiting. I want your part of the story, don't forget all details now okay?"

Severus pale skin get pink immediately, and that just make Lucius really excited for the romantic love story Severus is about to fill him in.

"You see....after we, well, broke up......I was crying at the library and that was the first time I think that I have developed a bit feelings to him. Then, well I......." Severus have totally forgot that Lucius was giving him spaces and didn't  even know he was trying to kill himself.

"You what? Severus you look really pale,  are you alright?"

"Luc, I promise myself that I will tell you the truth of everything that happens, but I hope you will stay calm until I tell you everything, I won't lie to you, that's all I asked for." Lucius just look at him nodding suspiciously.

"I was having depression and I tried to kill myself, again. And I was keeping myself in my mind unable to wake up for a week. James wake me up from my dreams and then the next day he just asked me out."

Severus was swinging his legs and looking on his lap. He know that Lucius will not let him go easily. Last time was not the first time he done some shit like that.

"Why? I thought you already promise me that no matter what you will find others and talk about this, not harming yourself like that. It's a good thing that Potter has found out something off about you. What would happened if he doesn't give a shit? You'll die! And I myself know for sure that it is entirely my fault! If I would be much more selfish and find you maybe you wouldn't even have those thoughts planting in your mind in the first place! Maybe....."

Lucius was cut off by Severus, hugging him tightly.

"Luc, never in your whole life dare to even say that this was your fault. No, you listen to me this is not your fault and it will never be. I get depressed and we talked about this that I need to find anyone, anyone at all to help me. I was stupid, too deep in my thoughts. I should take care of myself. I know you're going to say that I'm not at fault either, then please trust me when I say this is nobody's fault. My emotions are getting harder and harder to suppress and I won't do that to any of you anymore, I promise. Just don't blame yourself for everything."

They just sat like that for a long time and that was when Lucius start to break the silence.

"So what are you going to wear to the date?"

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